- Dec 10, 2019
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Divorced
I am afraid I have had head knowledge vs. having saving faith. I have fallen away from faith after being divorced...a church counselor advised my ex-wife it was OK to get divorced. I believe I did not listen to the Holy Spirit telling me I should not marry her....and I still got married. It seems as if I have consistently not listened to the still small voice instructing me. After my divorce I fell into sin with an unbelieving woman for nearly two years. I have had an experience of feeling like I lost the Holy Spirit earlier this year, but I am wondering if I ever had saving faith to start with. I am worried sick, as I feel I have committed the unpardonable sin by departing from the faith. I am trying to get back into faith but I am finding myself feeling as if I don't belong in the church, hence I have not gone. When I have gone in the past, I feel like a hypocrite and don't feel right taking communion. I am really struggling...have been finding myself becoming more recluse, not going out in the world, and staying in the house not doing much other than trying to find my way back to God. It has not felt as if I can get back to him even though many are saying God is right here. Thoughts and prayers!