I came on here earlier to talk about my friend who has an anxiety disorder but my thread got deleted during the update. He took himself off his medication in like September or October, and ever since then, we had on and off fights. We would get into a stage where we would be the closest friends and our relationship would be fine, but then something tiny would happen, and he and I would argue and then not talk for a bit (because he wanted his space). Then we'd be fine. Recently, we went a long time being fine, but then, it all snapped and broke apart. Even more recently, his anxiety has gotten worse and worse to the point where he can't be in a room with me without feeling nervous. I asked him what he needed me to do, and that really set him off. He went into a really bad state (not like the panic attacks he'd usually have) and went from being rational and talking things over with me calmly to screaming at me, throwing things, and kicking walls. I was really scared for both him and me, so I called our religious adviser on campus for help and he talked to him to calm him down.
But before that explosion happened, he started telling me that it was my fault he was like this. The conversation went something like:
"You're the reason I feel this way. I don't feel anxious around anyone else except you."
"Why? What am I doing?"
"Nothing! It's just my mind!"
"But you just said it's my fault."
"No it's not! Stop saying that!"
And it would go around in circles...
A few weeks prior to this, he and I got into a fight. That triggered something in him and he called me, saying how sorry he was and how he didn't know what to do. We'd been at a crossroads in our relationship, and I told him that he needed to be honest with me on how he saw me. I expected him to tell me that he wanted me out of his life, but instead he said, "I love you. ...I love you. I really love you. I love you." He drove to my dorm and sat in the parking lot and had a panic attack shortly after so I spent the rest of the night sitting with him, talking, and trying to calm him down. He talked a lot about not being sure if we should be together, and he had a really bad relationship a few years prior so I understood his hesitancy. He went back and forth on the idea, then stopped talking about it, and then came back to it at the end of the night. I saw how upset he was so I told him not to make a decision.
A few weeks after that, he told me he wanted me to not talk to him for the rest of the semester. He said he lied when he told me he loved me, and our religious adviser talked to the both of us and made me go along with this, though it was all thrown on me out of nowhere. I was really upset... But after only a week, he was already saying hi to me and wanting to talk to me. Which is what led to me asking what he needed me to do and him getting set off.
I'm sorry this is a long post, and I don't even think I summarized it properly, but what am I doing to cause his anxiety? Am I really? How can I help him? It hurts me so much because everyone I've talked to says I'm not doing anything at all, but he gets so angry whenever I care about him. He says so many things that contradict things he's said earlier, and he can't remember saying some things to me. He's having trouble believing anyone around him... Right now, our religious adviser wants to get him help, but he wants me out of his life during the process. That hurts me a lot. I'm scared he'll associate his anxiety with me after he gets better. I don't know what to do... I don't care if we don't end up together. I just want him to get better. This isn't the real him at all.
But before that explosion happened, he started telling me that it was my fault he was like this. The conversation went something like:
"You're the reason I feel this way. I don't feel anxious around anyone else except you."
"Why? What am I doing?"
"Nothing! It's just my mind!"
"But you just said it's my fault."
"No it's not! Stop saying that!"
And it would go around in circles...
A few weeks prior to this, he and I got into a fight. That triggered something in him and he called me, saying how sorry he was and how he didn't know what to do. We'd been at a crossroads in our relationship, and I told him that he needed to be honest with me on how he saw me. I expected him to tell me that he wanted me out of his life, but instead he said, "I love you. ...I love you. I really love you. I love you." He drove to my dorm and sat in the parking lot and had a panic attack shortly after so I spent the rest of the night sitting with him, talking, and trying to calm him down. He talked a lot about not being sure if we should be together, and he had a really bad relationship a few years prior so I understood his hesitancy. He went back and forth on the idea, then stopped talking about it, and then came back to it at the end of the night. I saw how upset he was so I told him not to make a decision.
A few weeks after that, he told me he wanted me to not talk to him for the rest of the semester. He said he lied when he told me he loved me, and our religious adviser talked to the both of us and made me go along with this, though it was all thrown on me out of nowhere. I was really upset... But after only a week, he was already saying hi to me and wanting to talk to me. Which is what led to me asking what he needed me to do and him getting set off.
I'm sorry this is a long post, and I don't even think I summarized it properly, but what am I doing to cause his anxiety? Am I really? How can I help him? It hurts me so much because everyone I've talked to says I'm not doing anything at all, but he gets so angry whenever I care about him. He says so many things that contradict things he's said earlier, and he can't remember saying some things to me. He's having trouble believing anyone around him... Right now, our religious adviser wants to get him help, but he wants me out of his life during the process. That hurts me a lot. I'm scared he'll associate his anxiety with me after he gets better. I don't know what to do... I don't care if we don't end up together. I just want him to get better. This isn't the real him at all.