You may have seen my other post I made, though I am doing better now.
This post is about my wife. Because we haven't been to a service in a year+ because of COVID, I think we have gotten complacent with not making service. Even the online ones. Mind you she works third shift so we are asleep during the morning/afternoon. There are times when I want to watch (I have major memory issues from a brain injury) the previous sundays service online, but she either doesn't feel good or is busy on her phone trying to talk with her friends from her home country.
On top of that we don't pray like we used to, or even pray by ourselves as much because of the stress of life. Well I am assuming she doesn't pray, I don't ever see her do it anymore. Unless he prays to herself silently. She doesn't do her devotion anymore either. I still try to do mine everyday, though again I forget things often. And I try to pray every night before bed.
What makes this a bigger deal to me is she's a pastor's daughter. Her love of the Lord is part of the reason I fell in love. When I was in her country 8 years ago, we prayer together, went to service (well they lived next to the church, no excuses lol), read together...etc.
And when she came here a year later we prayed together (not every day) and we would read the devotions. We went to church...etc. I feel like I failed her since as the husband it is my duty to keep her close to God. She's stressed alot of times because she's had a hard time adapting to America. And with financial issues now and my dad very sick, she seems distant from God.
I do know, as I said in the other post, COVID takes a big role in all this. But I really want us to at least watch service together. Even if we watch last Sundays on a Saturday night. We do have a couples bible which also has its own devotional. Aside from memory issues I also have anxiety at times, so I get anxious about asking her things.
She's a wonderful woman and I'd marry her again if I could turn back time. I just feel bad. And her mother doesn't even know any of this. I know she would be disappointed. I could tell her mother whats going on, but I know her mother would scold her. Which may be needed. But I feel it's my responsibility to keep her relationship with God better.
This post is about my wife. Because we haven't been to a service in a year+ because of COVID, I think we have gotten complacent with not making service. Even the online ones. Mind you she works third shift so we are asleep during the morning/afternoon. There are times when I want to watch (I have major memory issues from a brain injury) the previous sundays service online, but she either doesn't feel good or is busy on her phone trying to talk with her friends from her home country.
On top of that we don't pray like we used to, or even pray by ourselves as much because of the stress of life. Well I am assuming she doesn't pray, I don't ever see her do it anymore. Unless he prays to herself silently. She doesn't do her devotion anymore either. I still try to do mine everyday, though again I forget things often. And I try to pray every night before bed.
What makes this a bigger deal to me is she's a pastor's daughter. Her love of the Lord is part of the reason I fell in love. When I was in her country 8 years ago, we prayer together, went to service (well they lived next to the church, no excuses lol), read together...etc.
And when she came here a year later we prayed together (not every day) and we would read the devotions. We went to church...etc. I feel like I failed her since as the husband it is my duty to keep her close to God. She's stressed alot of times because she's had a hard time adapting to America. And with financial issues now and my dad very sick, she seems distant from God.
I do know, as I said in the other post, COVID takes a big role in all this. But I really want us to at least watch service together. Even if we watch last Sundays on a Saturday night. We do have a couples bible which also has its own devotional. Aside from memory issues I also have anxiety at times, so I get anxious about asking her things.
She's a wonderful woman and I'd marry her again if I could turn back time. I just feel bad. And her mother doesn't even know any of this. I know she would be disappointed. I could tell her mother whats going on, but I know her mother would scold her. Which may be needed. But I feel it's my responsibility to keep her relationship with God better.