ummm, i need help.
See, i think i had/have adhd. well my mum did when i was younger.
Heres why. When i was younger, i was hyperactive, sleepless, voilent, had no concentration, struggled at school, not really with it any colorings would set me off.
When i reached puberty these symptoms got worse, i became more voilent and would set off at the tiniest thing, also very paranoid.
Now, well, what cn i say. ive learnt to control myself the tiniest bit. But i am still hyper, sometimes i go off into rages, but that has also calmed a little bit, as with the rest of my life i suffer with nightmares. i am impatiant, i cant concentrate well (i can write these posts obviously) i still get angry and even hit out (im ashamed) i get depressed for no reason and sometimes suicidal. Imtrying to convert to a natural diet as much as possible, but that is hard cos im skint, and havnt much patience to cook a lot even though i enjoy it. i am at university but i think my work isnt as good as it should be. I get these great ideas on how im going to do it, but then i dont cos i just cant. i am also very paranoid.
As for diagnoses, they ignored these symptoms when i was young saying i was attention seeking (which not at all, i wanted to be normal, i was embarressed).
They even put me on prozac not long back, but that made me worse and couldnt sleep. Also, i went to see a counciler who told me i was normal (even though i had just hurt myself a few weeks back). I know im not, other people know im not, even though i just met them! people, joke about my concentration, though not harshly, so thats ok. I love God, i want to do some good stuff, but cant. im not a bad person, i try my best, but it is hard. i only wonder when i finally am going to lose it.
it is scary, have i got ADHD? i know a guy who is worse than me by miles but he is diagnosed, but we are similar. If it is not, then what is it? HELP!
i am so ashamed off myself.
See, i think i had/have adhd. well my mum did when i was younger.
Heres why. When i was younger, i was hyperactive, sleepless, voilent, had no concentration, struggled at school, not really with it any colorings would set me off.
When i reached puberty these symptoms got worse, i became more voilent and would set off at the tiniest thing, also very paranoid.
Now, well, what cn i say. ive learnt to control myself the tiniest bit. But i am still hyper, sometimes i go off into rages, but that has also calmed a little bit, as with the rest of my life i suffer with nightmares. i am impatiant, i cant concentrate well (i can write these posts obviously) i still get angry and even hit out (im ashamed) i get depressed for no reason and sometimes suicidal. Imtrying to convert to a natural diet as much as possible, but that is hard cos im skint, and havnt much patience to cook a lot even though i enjoy it. i am at university but i think my work isnt as good as it should be. I get these great ideas on how im going to do it, but then i dont cos i just cant. i am also very paranoid.
As for diagnoses, they ignored these symptoms when i was young saying i was attention seeking (which not at all, i wanted to be normal, i was embarressed).
They even put me on prozac not long back, but that made me worse and couldnt sleep. Also, i went to see a counciler who told me i was normal (even though i had just hurt myself a few weeks back). I know im not, other people know im not, even though i just met them! people, joke about my concentration, though not harshly, so thats ok. I love God, i want to do some good stuff, but cant. im not a bad person, i try my best, but it is hard. i only wonder when i finally am going to lose it.
it is scary, have i got ADHD? i know a guy who is worse than me by miles but he is diagnosed, but we are similar. If it is not, then what is it? HELP!
i am so ashamed off myself.