- Oct 17, 2018
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- Protestant
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- Single
I have a profound lack of peace in my life, and I realized that I'm obsessing over things that I have no control over that may or may not happen in the future. I think COVID has taught us that we cannot predict one day or one month into the future, so it's pointless to ask ourselves what next year will look like.
I work an entry level administrative job at a university, and I'm longing for a promotion. I'm putting in a lot of hours of overtime, and have been doing many favors for management. I've been steady for them. I find myself often thinking, "once I promote to 50k from 35k a year, I'll be happy" because money is tight living on my own. And yet, each day that comes and I'm not promoted to a higher salary, I find myself frustrated and miserable. I'm starting to see that I'm actually repelling the thing that I desperately want and think I need by obsessing over it so much. If I just relaxed and thanked God for what I do have, maybe something greater would come my way.
Future promotions and blessings are like women. When you set your happiness on them and pursue them and think, “I can’t live without one” they never come. It’s only when you let go of the thought of ever having a woman and find satisfaction in other things and have peace in yourself that suddenly women start asking about you. It’s a strange paradox of life in which the things you really want in life never manifest themselves and become yours until you give them up. It reminds me of Christ's saying that "He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses it for My sake shall find it."
Any thoughts on this?
I work an entry level administrative job at a university, and I'm longing for a promotion. I'm putting in a lot of hours of overtime, and have been doing many favors for management. I've been steady for them. I find myself often thinking, "once I promote to 50k from 35k a year, I'll be happy" because money is tight living on my own. And yet, each day that comes and I'm not promoted to a higher salary, I find myself frustrated and miserable. I'm starting to see that I'm actually repelling the thing that I desperately want and think I need by obsessing over it so much. If I just relaxed and thanked God for what I do have, maybe something greater would come my way.
Future promotions and blessings are like women. When you set your happiness on them and pursue them and think, “I can’t live without one” they never come. It’s only when you let go of the thought of ever having a woman and find satisfaction in other things and have peace in yourself that suddenly women start asking about you. It’s a strange paradox of life in which the things you really want in life never manifest themselves and become yours until you give them up. It reminds me of Christ's saying that "He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses it for My sake shall find it."
Any thoughts on this?
