- Aug 3, 2017
- 2
- 15
- 26
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
I know i am young, only 20 but 3 years ago i thought i found my soulmate. i felt god had brought him to me as he felt like "the one" for me. he was as perfect as one could be and treated me beautifully. because of me own selfishness and uncertainty, i ended things and after, did something i regret that ended up hurting him and to him, was the worst thing imaginable. he did no deserve it. i tried to get him to give me another chance and i showed him how truly sorry and remorseful i was. i realized i made a terrible mistake and that this was the man i wanted to love forever. we had a rocky couple months but in the end he could not forgive. this man has been burnt badly by me and has said some terribek things to me because of it and frankly i don't blame him. i asked god to forgive me. i've never been very religious but lately i find myself praying and thinking about god more. no matter how many times my ex tells me he doesn't want this or that he can't forgive me and doesn't love me anymore, i still find myself feeling like i shouldn't give up yet and to be patient after i pray about it. I don't understand if this is from god or my own desires but i can't shake it. if i was meant to wait and things would change, would god really let this man say some mean things to me? why do i feel like i need to wait for him when he is clearly telling me nothing is going to happen between us? i've grown closer to god since the breakup and have been focusing on my self for once.
