Hi there guys,
Ive been on this forum before and have scoured some sections for answers to the questions Ive bumped into on my long quest for some truth. This will be my first post here.
I have had a rigorous Christian upbringing but identify as seeking / atheistic at the moment. I have plenty of questions about the Christian faith and jesus, many of whom are already being addressed in similar threads.
What Ive been wondering about for some time now is something that seems to be a fallacy of sorts in the logic behind Gods message in the Bible: the question of accountability. If Im not mistaken, the Bible makes a few consistent claims:
1) god is perfect
2) man is very, very imperfect by default, not through choice
3) the choice of believing or not believing in God lies with man (free will)
Whats the logic behind this? How am I supposed to make sense of this? God has never revealed Himself to me (dont get started on the Bible - Im not talking about some old book that just everyone could have written, Im talking about observable happenings in my *very own* life and perception). I could get into this but will do so only if required, before this thread becomes an endless testimony of my personal disappointments.
Alright, given these three little assumptions, I have started to wonder how a PERFECT God can leave the decision that will decide over his/her souls ultimate faith to an IMPERFECT human being.
And what is free will, in this case? If someone holds a gun to my head and says: Youre free to follow me because Im infinitely superior to you, BUT if you dont, Ill murder you / burn you for all eternity - then how free am I? This is simply coercion and intimidation. Does this perfect God really need such rigorous methods?
Now, I have tried to become close with God, or to get to know Him better, but Ive been praying for about fourteen years now (ever since I got clinically depressed when I was 14) and nothings happened.
So far, the Christian answer to these questions has been:
- youre not looking good enough
- youre not seeing him because you are sinful
- you dont want to accept him / youre too proud
Alright, lets assume that all these things are true. Then what? If I AM sinful and fallen and inferior, according to Scripture, then naturally these things apply. So now I need Jesus the Almighty to help me - but He doesnt do anything. And 14 years can be a long time. Im beginning to open my eyes to the option that Jesus cant be relied on. Virtually all the help I received along the way was from non-Christians and myself. God had nothing to do with their love for me since their love is an act of free will, independent of God - Who Himself decided to remain hidden and motionless.
Im curious what your thoughts on the matter are.
And guys, you can throw as many Biblical passages at me as you want, but since I am currently seriously doubting the reliability of that very book it might not have the intended effect. I would like to hear answers that pertain to logic and reasoning, and Im also interested in hearing about your personal subjective experiences, but simply quoting the Bible probably wont do anything for you unless you can back it up with experience and proof.
Ive been on this forum before and have scoured some sections for answers to the questions Ive bumped into on my long quest for some truth. This will be my first post here.
I have had a rigorous Christian upbringing but identify as seeking / atheistic at the moment. I have plenty of questions about the Christian faith and jesus, many of whom are already being addressed in similar threads.
What Ive been wondering about for some time now is something that seems to be a fallacy of sorts in the logic behind Gods message in the Bible: the question of accountability. If Im not mistaken, the Bible makes a few consistent claims:
1) god is perfect
2) man is very, very imperfect by default, not through choice
3) the choice of believing or not believing in God lies with man (free will)
Whats the logic behind this? How am I supposed to make sense of this? God has never revealed Himself to me (dont get started on the Bible - Im not talking about some old book that just everyone could have written, Im talking about observable happenings in my *very own* life and perception). I could get into this but will do so only if required, before this thread becomes an endless testimony of my personal disappointments.
Alright, given these three little assumptions, I have started to wonder how a PERFECT God can leave the decision that will decide over his/her souls ultimate faith to an IMPERFECT human being.
And what is free will, in this case? If someone holds a gun to my head and says: Youre free to follow me because Im infinitely superior to you, BUT if you dont, Ill murder you / burn you for all eternity - then how free am I? This is simply coercion and intimidation. Does this perfect God really need such rigorous methods?
Now, I have tried to become close with God, or to get to know Him better, but Ive been praying for about fourteen years now (ever since I got clinically depressed when I was 14) and nothings happened.
So far, the Christian answer to these questions has been:
- youre not looking good enough
- youre not seeing him because you are sinful
- you dont want to accept him / youre too proud
Alright, lets assume that all these things are true. Then what? If I AM sinful and fallen and inferior, according to Scripture, then naturally these things apply. So now I need Jesus the Almighty to help me - but He doesnt do anything. And 14 years can be a long time. Im beginning to open my eyes to the option that Jesus cant be relied on. Virtually all the help I received along the way was from non-Christians and myself. God had nothing to do with their love for me since their love is an act of free will, independent of God - Who Himself decided to remain hidden and motionless.
Im curious what your thoughts on the matter are.
And guys, you can throw as many Biblical passages at me as you want, but since I am currently seriously doubting the reliability of that very book it might not have the intended effect. I would like to hear answers that pertain to logic and reasoning, and Im also interested in hearing about your personal subjective experiences, but simply quoting the Bible probably wont do anything for you unless you can back it up with experience and proof.