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For a long while, perhaps as long as a couple years, I have been in a period of discernment, pondering as to whether or not I should continue as a Southern Baptist or convert to Roman Catholicism (I say "convert" because I am not baptized). Then, earlier this year, I had a personal experience, it seemed like a revelation. This might sound crazy, as I used to not believe in such experiences, but it felt like there was a holy presence in this revelation, in the form of a dream. Perhaps I will describe the details later on, but in short, it seemed that this dream indicated that Catholicism would be the way to go to improve my relationship with God.
A couple or a few months after this experience, just doing my day-to-day routine as usual, and one day I found myself unable to leave the city that my school is in. I don't know how to describe this feeling, but I simply could not leave the city. Thus, I pulled over, made a phone call to the office of the Diocese, and then made my way to a parish near my school. I talked to one of the secretaries there (everyone else was gone, it's a very small parish with only one priest) and attempted to schedule an appointment with the priest for a couple weeks, mostly regarding some questions about faith and about RCIA.
Moving forward, every attempt to schedule an appointment has seemed to fail. Either he's too busy, or in the most recent case, no one was at the parish despite it being well within its hours of operation, or in another, I was unable to meet at the time that he was available.
So now I am left wondering, is this the direction that I should go in? At this point, I am starting to feel lost. Ultimately, I still feel that Catholicism is still the right direction, but I can't help but to feel some degree of doubt, perhaps it has to do with it being a parish that has only Novus Ordo mass, I don't know (I'm not here to question the validity of any style of mass or any denominations) -- another parish, albeit a bit farther away, has Tridentine mass and has some strict etiquette regarding attire (seems like a traditionalist parish), but the problem is that I don't feel particularly drawn to that parish either. Therefore, I am feeling quite lost.
I should also note that I still live at home, come from a lower income family and can't afford to move out just yet, we depend on one another. My family has no idea of my discernment nor that I went to that parish or made any form of contact with any Catholics. As far as they're concerned, I'm still, theologically speaking, a very conservative Southern Baptist.
For a long while, perhaps as long as a couple years, I have been in a period of discernment, pondering as to whether or not I should continue as a Southern Baptist or convert to Roman Catholicism (I say "convert" because I am not baptized). Then, earlier this year, I had a personal experience, it seemed like a revelation. This might sound crazy, as I used to not believe in such experiences, but it felt like there was a holy presence in this revelation, in the form of a dream. Perhaps I will describe the details later on, but in short, it seemed that this dream indicated that Catholicism would be the way to go to improve my relationship with God.
A couple or a few months after this experience, just doing my day-to-day routine as usual, and one day I found myself unable to leave the city that my school is in. I don't know how to describe this feeling, but I simply could not leave the city. Thus, I pulled over, made a phone call to the office of the Diocese, and then made my way to a parish near my school. I talked to one of the secretaries there (everyone else was gone, it's a very small parish with only one priest) and attempted to schedule an appointment with the priest for a couple weeks, mostly regarding some questions about faith and about RCIA.
Moving forward, every attempt to schedule an appointment has seemed to fail. Either he's too busy, or in the most recent case, no one was at the parish despite it being well within its hours of operation, or in another, I was unable to meet at the time that he was available.
So now I am left wondering, is this the direction that I should go in? At this point, I am starting to feel lost. Ultimately, I still feel that Catholicism is still the right direction, but I can't help but to feel some degree of doubt, perhaps it has to do with it being a parish that has only Novus Ordo mass, I don't know (I'm not here to question the validity of any style of mass or any denominations) -- another parish, albeit a bit farther away, has Tridentine mass and has some strict etiquette regarding attire (seems like a traditionalist parish), but the problem is that I don't feel particularly drawn to that parish either. Therefore, I am feeling quite lost.
I should also note that I still live at home, come from a lower income family and can't afford to move out just yet, we depend on one another. My family has no idea of my discernment nor that I went to that parish or made any form of contact with any Catholics. As far as they're concerned, I'm still, theologically speaking, a very conservative Southern Baptist.