Greetings to all who reside in this forum. I am known as Miyakutsune, I speak not my real name because I do not wish to create a cyber footprint for my name received at conceivement. I am new to life of a Christian. From darkness which I have resided my life in whole. Now gazing into the truth from twilight I see that the times of the end are neigh, with this knowledge, new unto me, I seek to change that which crafted who and what I am. I walk a path of thorn and I've. Now, alas waking unto the truth, that which is the end times and that Jesus is the lord and savior to all whosoever will believeth in him, I ask for any whom may provide it, aid this sinner who alas step from the darkness that which I came, from the horrors that which I hath done unto many, and aid me that my eyes might be opened widely, and the light might surround me like the water surroundith a fish. I seek salvation, but lack a great many things needed to receive it. Emotion be one of the many. As a child I lay surrounded with difficulty, both in education and mentality, I had fallen to their blade. Diagnosed as a child with torretz syndrome, manic depression, bi polar, schizophrenia and a great many more. As the age passed I who was young became like a Tiger, attacking all who tried to aid me, in the mind I saw only cruelty as I did not understand that which was the reason I was locked in a hospital and a hospital and a hospital time and time again. In the Mind I had I felt as if I was being mis treated yet it was I who was lose and in rage. After spending a time and a time again behind the locks of a hospital again and a time again, the only way I managed to survive was to eradicate all emotion which made me act violently or made desire for self termination. Now, the tree which is that of emotion bare no fruit, yet lay barren, without life. I have no emotion and those around me see it true. Even the dr which offer aid, lay shocked as he has not seen one without emotion completely. That which is my mother closeness unto death a time ago, and all of family feared, and weeped unto her, and I stood desolate and without emotion, as if she who lay near death hath no meaning unto me. So I ask unto all here, all who art unto light as I unto darkness. I prey to thee who art in heaven, he the Lord Jesus, but feel I am ignored. I blame not if be the truth as I deserve fire only. Does anyone not have the power to help me? Am I truly lost to that which is the darkness in which I came? One so told me to read the bible, I understand not that which is lay upon me and grow tiresome unto its words A bible, supposed to feel as if under a tree in a kind spring, to me is what some call boring, like waiting hour upon hour for a bus, I try to read unto its page and page again only to be bored and understand not what it says. May anyone aid me, so that unlike many Christians, lukewarm within their faith I shall not reside unto them, may anyone aid me, so in absolute assurance I may be saved and the glass that which is my soul might be filled with the holy grace?
