Due to ocd, I wanted to check something on my fork. I checked and everything was fine but there was a spot that I think, I could not check easily. I did not want to look weird to my brother so, I pretended that I was looking at my fork while eating and daydreaming, I think. On the same time I was checking it, secretly. I think, pretending that I am daydreaming while looking at my fork and doing my ocd compulsion (checking it about something) made me look/check the form more than enough.
When I realised that I freaked because 2 years ago, I made a rushed promise to God about not rechecking my boiler heater and some other house stuff, compulsively. I do not know if the promise was only for the boiler heater and other stuff, or for everything that has to do with rechecking as part of a compulsion in general. I think, I did not realise that I was checking my fork many times, probably, due to thinking other stuff and pretending. I completely, forgot the promise about not rechecking compulsively. Did I broke the promise?
When I realised that I freaked because 2 years ago, I made a rushed promise to God about not rechecking my boiler heater and some other house stuff, compulsively. I do not know if the promise was only for the boiler heater and other stuff, or for everything that has to do with rechecking as part of a compulsion in general. I think, I did not realise that I was checking my fork many times, probably, due to thinking other stuff and pretending. I completely, forgot the promise about not rechecking compulsively. Did I broke the promise?
