- Jun 5, 2020
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Married
Hello All - I lived an unhappy life growing up (for the most part) because my mother was very abusive (verbally and emotionally). Just to give some background, she would act out anger for reasons we couldn't understand and made life miserable for my stepfather and us. She was extremely critical of others, self-centered and hardly ever took ownership for mistakes. It was always someone else fault. There were some good times in the years, but unfortunately the darkness characterized the majority of our life. As I became older and began my own life, I would notice that she would do things to me that I watched her do to others when I was younger. As an example I moved away to the east coast and went back to my hometown on a business trip. I had not seen her or my stepdad for 2 years. However for reasons unknown to me, she got into one of her moods and would not see me when I came down. Would not answer my calls, told my stepdad not to answer my calls, etc. After months went by, she starts talking to me again as if nothing ever happened. Does not acknowledge or take responsibility for anything. I have never received an "I'm Sorry" for all the things she did to me when I was younger or my adult life. This is how she has always handled things, just talks as if an offense never happened. I have forgiven her and still call her from time to time to pray with her and carry on. However I have not gone back to see her again and feel at my age of 47 that I've had enough. She is at the near end of her life span (75) that runs in her family. She is frail and could go at anytime, I just don't feel that it's a priority to try and see her again. I never really felt that she was a Mom (there are a lot of other things I have not included here). Anyhow I just wanted to get your thoughts on whether I should try to see her again and if I seem unforgiving.