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A few months ago I stopped identifying as Christian and stopped going to church. I belong to an ELCA church. But I felt conflicted about identifying as Christian when I had so many problems with Christianity.
I find myself missing the people there and the social contact. But I'm not sure how I can identify as a Christian in good conscience.
I accept the conclusions of the Jesus Seminar, and on the issue of God's existence, I am not a realist, though I think the idea of God can be useful for some people, I think it doesn't make any sense to me except perhaps as a metaphor. Though I am not a philosophical naturalist and I do believe in some kind of existence after death. I do believe in prayer and sometimes I do pray, but I do not pray to God as most Christians would understand it. It's just a time for me to focus on having positive intentions for myself and other people.
I don't agree with the Bible for the most part, don't consider it to be a magical book, and don't believe alot on the creed. In fact I find forcing people to say a creed to be a terrible idea. I don't consider myself a bad person and I don't want a blood sacrifice so that "God" can forgive me. I don't operate by guilt in my life anymore. I am not a sinner.
But I do find myself missing church this time of year, and I guess I continue to respect Jesus' teachings about compassion and justice. So it's not easy.
My partner continues to go to church most Sundays. But I don't go.
I think I'm very angry about all the injustice Christians have done throughout the years, and esp. the attitudes Christians have had about LGBT people . My church's stance on the issue is simply too ambiguous, and I don't see how I can consider it anything but a moral failing to have anything against gay or trans people. And in my own life, I do not have friendship with those who think otherwise, it's a deal-breaker for me. I have thought about visiting a moral liberal church, like the UCC which is more explicitly pro-LGBT, but I am so burned out I just can't work up the motivation.
I suppose I need to meditate more. I used to do this every day for twenty minutes twice a day, but in the past month I've been lazy and it's hard to reinstitute the habit. I'm just not sure what direction I go in my life, whether I should give the church another shot, or I should formally become Buddhist.
I find myself missing the people there and the social contact. But I'm not sure how I can identify as a Christian in good conscience.
I accept the conclusions of the Jesus Seminar, and on the issue of God's existence, I am not a realist, though I think the idea of God can be useful for some people, I think it doesn't make any sense to me except perhaps as a metaphor. Though I am not a philosophical naturalist and I do believe in some kind of existence after death. I do believe in prayer and sometimes I do pray, but I do not pray to God as most Christians would understand it. It's just a time for me to focus on having positive intentions for myself and other people.
I don't agree with the Bible for the most part, don't consider it to be a magical book, and don't believe alot on the creed. In fact I find forcing people to say a creed to be a terrible idea. I don't consider myself a bad person and I don't want a blood sacrifice so that "God" can forgive me. I don't operate by guilt in my life anymore. I am not a sinner.
But I do find myself missing church this time of year, and I guess I continue to respect Jesus' teachings about compassion and justice. So it's not easy.
My partner continues to go to church most Sundays. But I don't go.
I think I'm very angry about all the injustice Christians have done throughout the years, and esp. the attitudes Christians have had about LGBT people . My church's stance on the issue is simply too ambiguous, and I don't see how I can consider it anything but a moral failing to have anything against gay or trans people. And in my own life, I do not have friendship with those who think otherwise, it's a deal-breaker for me. I have thought about visiting a moral liberal church, like the UCC which is more explicitly pro-LGBT, but I am so burned out I just can't work up the motivation.
I suppose I need to meditate more. I used to do this every day for twenty minutes twice a day, but in the past month I've been lazy and it's hard to reinstitute the habit. I'm just not sure what direction I go in my life, whether I should give the church another shot, or I should formally become Buddhist.
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