First major anxiety attack of the year

[Blaise N]

Hi everyone,


I’m reaching out today in regards to sudden anxiety that has befallen me since Saturday.It first started out as fear of apostasy but it now has morphed into more complex anxiety.


So to elaborate what is causing me anxiety is no longer apostasy,but me rather having anxiety that I’m forcing myself to do spiritual things.For days I’ve been crying and begging God to sustain me,and I’ve constantly been asking God to grant me a pure heart.

for more elaboration,it seems like I have to force myself to worry so I still have assurance I care for Jesus and love him,at this point today I can’t even say “I love you Jesus” without thinking of the thought of me forcing myself to say so.

another thing is today I was afraid to give my worries about apostasy and unbelief (that I don’t have,just anxiety over) to the Lord because I was afraid he’d push me away into unbelief to teach me something,but I ended up trusting him but I’m scared he’ll put me into a state of unbelief.

Needless to say it’s troublesome and I’m worried about that.I’m more scared of being away from Jesus.I don’t know what I’ve done as to be disciplined or punished for with this,the only thing I can think of is not keeping up with Bible reading.As of right now as a type this I can’t even think straight and direct my thoughts towards the lord.I know deep down God is real and believe all of the things about Jesus.It’s just that I think I’m like Mr Martin Luther,who worries about wether he truly wanted to follow God.


I have noticed 2 possibilities,that I have one major anxiety attack once a month and/or my anxiety is in a bipolar pattern,what I mean by this is there are weeks I have full confidence and assurance with Jesus,but longer weeks with despair and anxiety with very very very short intervals of peace and hope.


Overall I’m asking for prayers if anyone is willing,and for their 2 cents on this matter.


The overall intrusive thought at this point is anything spiritual towards the Lord I may do or think is always accompanied by a “your forcing yourself” thought.

 

[mama2one]

for their 2 cents on this matter.

hope you can get your anxiety under control since it wreaks havoc on the body

I've had anxiety for 2 wks over a dental appt
the stress/anxiety raised my blood pressure & gave me a queasy stomach

had my appt & I stressed out for nothing!



breathe & try to calm yourself; with deep breathing one can lower BP

get a BP machine
you'll see for yourself how BP will rise with anxiety

 

[Tolworth John]

their 2 cents on this matter.

Please speak to your doctor, therapist etc as you urgently need medication and to regularly to take that medication.