- Jan 18, 2018
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hi, I’m kind of new to this, so I’ll give it my best explanation I can for now. Honestly, I feel like I am going insane and like I’m not living freely at all. See, I have severe OCD(think, doing things literally hundreds of times)and I feel like the OCD that I once had with worldly things, I now have with God. I used to do things hundreds of times but God helped me overcome that. However, now, I believe the devil is trying to use my OCD against me in my Christian life to both make me unhappy and make me feel like I’m a failure. Honestly, I can’t do anything anymore. I feel like certain colors of clothes are sinful. I feel like crossing my legs or yawning or wearing a jacket inside when it’s cold is sinful. I feel like reading my Bible too fast is sinful(and by that I mean anything but one verse a minute). I feel like listening to music(anything but Gospel music and even some Gospel songs)is sinful. I feel like jokes(even innocent ones)are sinful. I feel like eating certain types of food, anything sweet, spicy, or certain colors, is sinful. The scariest thing, however, is that I believe that actually eating anything for 1-3 days is sinful. I feel like I should constantly fast and not eat for days at a time. I also feel like I should never eat or drink again sometimes but I know better than to believe that. But at the moment I believe that EVERYTHING that isn’t reading the Bible is a sin and sometimes I even believe that I shouldn’t read my Bible. I feel like my mind is under attack, constantly. What should I do?