I go to a Presbyterian church I adore, but like any other churches
there are things I disagree with. One is that it seems Calvinists view
the role of the law in a believer's life in a different way than the
Dispensationalists. I know how we're justified, but how do we KEEP justified? The Bible gives SO many warnings about watching and being careful to keep the faith.
One thing I always think about in relation to this issue is this:
"Take heed brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of
unbelief, in departing from the living God, But exhort one another
daily, while it is called Today; lest any of you be hardened through
the deceitfulness of sin." Heb. 3:12-13
From this passage, doesn't it stand to reason that any willful sin we
engage in causes us to risk our heart becoming slowly hardened and
gradually leaving God due to it's deceitfulness. I've seen my
Christian friends deceived by sin - at first they say maybe seomthing's wrong then they start convincing themselves that "that Scriptures doesn't apply to this situation, etc. until they go ahead and do what b/f they knew was wrong. They stop believing what God says because they want that thing more than the truth. These people still attend church, and I think they have repented and are believers, but I'm just using it as an example of our capacity for SLOW self-deception. There must be a point b/f deception where the person believes the truth b/f they cross over into unbelief.
If willful sins deceive us and can lead us to not believe God, then - and this is the clincher - after believing, don't we have to keep the law to STAY saved? I don't mean to earn salvation since it's not by law but to STAY BELIEVING and to abide (John 15) in the One who already accomplished it for us by keeping the law. This sounds a little like what I understand to be the Catholic position (I am a Protestant struggling with this issue).
This still seems just as scary as justification by law (after all,
my understanding is that justification only lasts a split second and sanctification a lifetime). Maybe my logic is flawed, but it's not much of a comfort tome that I'm initially saved by faith apart from works (only for a split second) and then must fear that any subsequent disobedience risks me not staying in love and relationship with Christ (salvation).
Perhaps this is just me wanting to disobey, and God know this and
wants me to fear to keep me from disobeying (those passage do sound like God wants us to be warned and fear for a good purpose). Actually, to be totally honest, that's EXACTLY WHAT IT IS. I want to know that Iam saved totally apart from my works, so that if I did go on sinning willfully I would still be saved (but I know that's not biblical). Also, I know I wouldn't keep sinning anyway because I'm changed now. But part of me wants to believe I COULD keep sinning willfully and still be saved (though I know I wouldn't of course). I think this is probably wicked. This is also probably why I am so rebellious to all God's commands right now - I know I'm stiff arming Him. I want Him to tell me they have no bearing whatsoever on my eternal relationship with him [something I think He can't say b/c it isn't true (Hebrews 12:14)].
Why must I continually want what is not possible or even good. Why can't I just love the truth? I try to want what is good but I don't. I am SO, SO SICK OF THIS!!! I am actually incredibly enraged and
frustrated to tears right now, just as I mentioned before. I think
this issue is the crux of that anger. I feel like I'm caught in an
impossible bind I can't win, and until I get through this, the issue
will always keep cropping up in my life. I must put it to rest for good.
there are things I disagree with. One is that it seems Calvinists view
the role of the law in a believer's life in a different way than the
Dispensationalists. I know how we're justified, but how do we KEEP justified? The Bible gives SO many warnings about watching and being careful to keep the faith.
One thing I always think about in relation to this issue is this:
"Take heed brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of
unbelief, in departing from the living God, But exhort one another
daily, while it is called Today; lest any of you be hardened through
the deceitfulness of sin." Heb. 3:12-13
From this passage, doesn't it stand to reason that any willful sin we
engage in causes us to risk our heart becoming slowly hardened and
gradually leaving God due to it's deceitfulness. I've seen my
Christian friends deceived by sin - at first they say maybe seomthing's wrong then they start convincing themselves that "that Scriptures doesn't apply to this situation, etc. until they go ahead and do what b/f they knew was wrong. They stop believing what God says because they want that thing more than the truth. These people still attend church, and I think they have repented and are believers, but I'm just using it as an example of our capacity for SLOW self-deception. There must be a point b/f deception where the person believes the truth b/f they cross over into unbelief.
If willful sins deceive us and can lead us to not believe God, then - and this is the clincher - after believing, don't we have to keep the law to STAY saved? I don't mean to earn salvation since it's not by law but to STAY BELIEVING and to abide (John 15) in the One who already accomplished it for us by keeping the law. This sounds a little like what I understand to be the Catholic position (I am a Protestant struggling with this issue).
This still seems just as scary as justification by law (after all,
my understanding is that justification only lasts a split second and sanctification a lifetime). Maybe my logic is flawed, but it's not much of a comfort tome that I'm initially saved by faith apart from works (only for a split second) and then must fear that any subsequent disobedience risks me not staying in love and relationship with Christ (salvation).
Perhaps this is just me wanting to disobey, and God know this and
wants me to fear to keep me from disobeying (those passage do sound like God wants us to be warned and fear for a good purpose). Actually, to be totally honest, that's EXACTLY WHAT IT IS. I want to know that Iam saved totally apart from my works, so that if I did go on sinning willfully I would still be saved (but I know that's not biblical). Also, I know I wouldn't keep sinning anyway because I'm changed now. But part of me wants to believe I COULD keep sinning willfully and still be saved (though I know I wouldn't of course). I think this is probably wicked. This is also probably why I am so rebellious to all God's commands right now - I know I'm stiff arming Him. I want Him to tell me they have no bearing whatsoever on my eternal relationship with him [something I think He can't say b/c it isn't true (Hebrews 12:14)].
Why must I continually want what is not possible or even good. Why can't I just love the truth? I try to want what is good but I don't. I am SO, SO SICK OF THIS!!! I am actually incredibly enraged and
frustrated to tears right now, just as I mentioned before. I think
this issue is the crux of that anger. I feel like I'm caught in an
impossible bind I can't win, and until I get through this, the issue
will always keep cropping up in my life. I must put it to rest for good.