I am in pretty bad shape right now mentally because I haven’t got any good help IRL or from other forums. After receiving rejections from most women I have been interested in, while having other women who I was previously good friends with slip away from me upon leaving uni, I’ve decided to be content with remaining single rather than risk frustration over women. But even with a fair amount of friendships early on in my life being women/girls who happen to be friends, my anxiety has caused me to generalise against the entire opposite sex. In my experience and generation It’s either back off or spending every waking moment together. It’s kind of a defense mechanism that I’ve used to respond to my perceived loss of women’s interest to be friends with me, whether it be growing apart, beliefs on certain topics don't align, someone getting married, or some woman just plain doesn’t like me. This is all getting to my head, now to the point that any situation involving women, in both my social life and my upcoming future jobs, will be a stepping stone for humiliation. There is nothing in me to like out of any gender and it seems like God expects absolute purity out of me but wants to see me make a fool out of myself with women.
I’ve lost several nights of solid sleep and sanity over my many failures and mistakes with women and my worries over these thoughts. Any help and hope here?
BTW No talk about finding a new church, if possible. I tend to get lost in large groups and my previous negative experiences in church are some of the root causes for my anxiety/PTSD-like symptoms and fear of women.
I’ve lost several nights of solid sleep and sanity over my many failures and mistakes with women and my worries over these thoughts. Any help and hope here?
BTW No talk about finding a new church, if possible. I tend to get lost in large groups and my previous negative experiences in church are some of the root causes for my anxiety/PTSD-like symptoms and fear of women.