I don't understand why you are relating an objective discussion about whether or not faith alone in Christ is sufficient for justification subjectively to yourself, as if I am speaking directly about your standing with Christ.
The simple definition of a hypocrite is a person who says they are something they are not. Simple. The example I gave was a person who appears to be an angel at church but is a devil at home.
I drew the distinction between a person who has "got religion" through easy believerism, as if saying a prayer at the altar of a church actually gave them salvation. That's not faith in Christ at all. Salvation is not a matter of deciding to adopt the Christian religion, attend church, be involved in Christian work, live a moral life, be kind to animals, be concerned about the planet, and talk Christian talk. The same person could rise to become a deacon, pastor, or even a bishop! In actual fact, those things are not the core of embracing Christ, although they are the actions of a person who has embraced Christ - but they call all be the actions of a rank hypocrite as well!
Actually, and adulterer, murderer, and thief can all dress in the same three-piece suit as an honest, godly, genuine Christian believer, and so by appearance, one would not be able to tell them apart by appearances. Also, they can all be great church members and respected by all on Sundays at church, but their actions are very different when out of the public view. That is why hypocrites make every effort to appear to be very committed Christians, when, in reality, they are not.
The spooky thing is that we cannot tell the difference, because we cannot see into the heart of a person. Only God can.
It is impossible to be a genuine believer in Christ without coming to the full realisation of one's own absolute sinfulness, that he is a rebel, an enemy of God, a slave to sin, without hope, deserving of the full wrath of God and of a final future in hell. Also, there can be no salvation for the sinner unless there is a treaty between the sinner and God, involving the condition that the sinner puts his full faith and trust in the finished work of Christ and agrees to allow the Holy Spirit to take hold of his life so he can live for the glory of God.
If a person who thinks he has some good in him and some worthiness for God to accept him into the family of faith, which many who join the Christian do, and then wonder why it doesn't work satisfactorily for them, it is because he has come over the wall of easy believerism instead of through the narrow gate.
An "easy believer" will decide that the Christian life will be good for him, and he will saunter up to the altar, say a prayer and all will be well for him. But there will be no change of heart, and outside of the view of his fellow Christians, he will get on with his old life as before with its lusts. This is because he thinks he can have faith, which is not faith at all, but merely a mental belief and assent to the principles of Christianity.
The narrow gate is only shown to those who know they are absolute, hopeless, helpless sinners and enemies of God, deserving of wrath and hell. It is this realisation that causes a person to groan, pray, and cry out to God for mercy. It is only then when someone shows them the way to Christ, that it is the best news they have ever heard in his life. He then throws himself on Christ as his Saviour, and pleads for the assurance of salvation. It took John Bunyan eight years from the time he first threw himself upon Christ, until he received full assurance of salvation from the Holy Spirit.
This is why the way to salvation is a narrow gate and few there be who find it. This is because realising the depth and seriousness of sin and one's total unworthiness to receive anything from God is too difficult for many to consider, so they avoid that process and go the easy believer way in the hope that they will gain salvation anyway.
