- Mar 8, 2019
- 10
- 30
- 33
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Protestant
- Marital Status
- Divorced
Ive been hurting for 3 years without any relief. I don't know what to do anymore..I see doctors, psychiatrists, and therapy. I am on a bunch of different medications but I am not feeling anything good. I don't think that I am saved anymore, I think that I had rejected or offended the Holy Spirit God. I feel like an apostate because of the constant and daily suffering after going on a long spree of willful sin. I repent about everything and I do as much as I can to learn about God but I am exhausted and in literal pain too. My chest is constantly tight. I don't feel fulfilled and I don't experience peace. I used to be the happiest person in the world and now I am nothing but a shell of my former self. How does one get into the word of God when I am exhausted and don't have it in me anymore. I feel lost and without direction. I can't apologize enough to God. The things that I did were wrong, and very bad, I understand why I don't deserve forgiveness and am suffering..but I can't go on like this.