- Jan 24, 2011
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Life at the moment (and it has been for some time) for me is like walking on a slow paced treadmill. I'm going nowhere and day in and day out I'm repeating the same pattern; wake up in the afternoon, sit in front of the computer, eat dinner, go to bed. I feel too depressed to do anything else, yet alone look after myself, the house, my pets or aspire to go out and do anything (everyone else is doing everything for me, mainly my parents).
I'm living on the sickness benefit for various different reasons; depression, Aspergers syndrome and a broken leg (which resulted in me almost losing my left foot and my motorcycle being completely smashed).
Before this I was aspiring to be an artist and competing in the ring as a Boxer. Now I have no inspiration, can't train with a broken leg, and I've lost my vehicle. I have little money to put towards any studies and I can't work a normal job, It sickness me seeing the list of excuses that I'm writing out but at the moment from my perspective they are very real.
I'm frustrated, I'm tired and I'm struggling to see anyway out of this damn rut. Why Is God doing this (If he is doing this), what lessons are there to be learnt?
Basically, I'm a bum living off my parents and the government, a loser with no education, intelligence or aspirations, without value.
And if anyone else has been reading my other posts, to think I have the nerve to offer biblical advice or opinions? What a joke I am. A lousy servant, and a freeloader living off the grace of God.
Pathetic.
I'm living on the sickness benefit for various different reasons; depression, Aspergers syndrome and a broken leg (which resulted in me almost losing my left foot and my motorcycle being completely smashed).
Before this I was aspiring to be an artist and competing in the ring as a Boxer. Now I have no inspiration, can't train with a broken leg, and I've lost my vehicle. I have little money to put towards any studies and I can't work a normal job, It sickness me seeing the list of excuses that I'm writing out but at the moment from my perspective they are very real.
I'm frustrated, I'm tired and I'm struggling to see anyway out of this damn rut. Why Is God doing this (If he is doing this), what lessons are there to be learnt?
Basically, I'm a bum living off my parents and the government, a loser with no education, intelligence or aspirations, without value.
And if anyone else has been reading my other posts, to think I have the nerve to offer biblical advice or opinions? What a joke I am. A lousy servant, and a freeloader living off the grace of God.
Pathetic.
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