Dusting off (Possibly triggering)

[LazeyWinde]

Most of you know I'd gone 6 weeks without self harming, I got the urge more than once and struggled with it but managed to resist... up till last Friday. I aint gonna go into what had triggered me here... obviously self harming didn't solve anything and what was bothering me got better the following day by itself. And I guess I was lucky (Or God had other ideas about what I should be doing to myself that day)... I wanted to do it bad and really tried to... but nothing seemed to 'work', yesterday the mark was pale and today there's no mark left at all. It's kinda strange, but good. I might've gotten frustrated about it Friday but then I got talking to a friend and calmed down.

Why'd I (try to) do it? Besides the trigger... I'd tossed all my coping techniques out the window and decided to dwell on what was bothering me and take it out on myself instead. I knew better but being human I was stupid instead.
I read somewhere that relapses aren't really bad things... if you deal with them the right way (ie LEARN from them) they're really just detours so may as well enjoy the scenery as I get back on track.

So...
Note to self: Learned something... don't be stupid dwelling on stuff... get list of coping skills and USE it.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Wow...thanks for posting this Lacey . Falling isn't failing - it just means you need to get back up and, as your title says, dust yourself off.

Fantastic post Hun. Keep going - you can do it!

 

[berry2000]

Great job! I've had similar episodes lately. Like you said relapses aren't always bad things. I've had a couple of relapses but have been able to continue in my recovery. I think it is normal especially if you learn from it and keep moving forward.

 

[ChristInAction]

aw, *hugs* I know how stupid you can feel after but you have to stay stronge. This time try for a week longer! Thats what I use to do, I ended up making 5 months like that.
We're humen, we fall. thats really all that it is, we give into temptation. Try to stop dwelling on it.
I said it before pick youself up & dust yourself off.
Praying for you.
PM me if you need to talk or vent.

 

[LazeyWinde]

Thanks. *hugs* I'm doing pretty good so far. Haven't been triggered but hopefully I'll react better if I am.

 

[Nobility]

Wow! You are going really well and learning through it what is the most important thing.

Keep up with it

 

[LazeyWinde]

I'm really dusty again.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Then let's dust you off my friend . You're going to beat this Hun.

 

[LazeyWinde]

Well... At least my hair is clean (What little is left of it) went a bit crazy for a while there.