Im trying my best to meet my needs. Im trying and Ive prayed and i feel God is just watching me struggle. I keep trying and trying just to be set back and have my plans thwarted yet others who pray once or none at all have their needs met.
It's easier for me to just turn away and pretend he doesnt exist bc it makes me less angry. I dont understand how someone that "loves" you just watches you struggle even after you pray for help.
I just wish I knew if Ill ever get or achieve what Im striving for ( been trying for yrs) if not I would simple not struggle in vain. I would live each day as a pointless existence going through the motions.
Its hard for me to trust God when he doesnt help. Or speak when I pray.
I am done.
I hate Him.
It's easier for me to just turn away and pretend he doesnt exist bc it makes me less angry. I dont understand how someone that "loves" you just watches you struggle even after you pray for help.
I just wish I knew if Ill ever get or achieve what Im striving for ( been trying for yrs) if not I would simple not struggle in vain. I would live each day as a pointless existence going through the motions.
Its hard for me to trust God when he doesnt help. Or speak when I pray.
I am done.
I hate Him.