Doctor Appointment-First one really since it happened...

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Hey,
I wanted to let you all know, that I need some support especially these next coming weeks because I am going to go to the doctor. I have not been checked out by the doctor since I was raped. So it's really going to be tough for me. The problem I'm having is that my doctor does not do these sort of "tests" because she is a pediatric doctor. So my mom is either going to have me go to her doctor or she is going to find me an obgyn, which having no experience with an obgyn or my mother's doctor scares me a bit. It's going to be a little bit more stressful than I had initially thought. So I would really appreciate your prayers this week. I'll keep ya'll updated through out the week.

 

[the.Sheepdog]

You will be in my prayers dear one. I betcha the doctors will be very kind and gentle with you too.

 

[bubblefish]

Hun, that is one of the hardest things to do and while it is terrifying at the time I am sure it will be alright You can get through it.

Any doctor you see should do everything they can to make you comfortable, especially due to the circumstances. And always remember that if at any time you feel too uncomfortable you can always ask them to stop. It might also help to have your mum or someone you trust with you to support you as well.

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I am scared to death. I know I'll get through it but still. Thanks for keeping me in your prayers. The fact is though I'm never going to be comfortable with someone touching me down there.

 

[Criada]

I am scared to death. I know I'll get through it but still. Thanks for keeping me in your prayers. The fact is though I'm never going to be comfortable with someone touching me down there.

I don't think any of us are, sweetie! It's worse for those of us who have been abused, but I think all women are uncomfortable with it.

Praying, sweetie

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

My therapist taught me a new breathing technique, and hopefully I can get pretty good at this technique before my appointment to help with some of the anxiety. If somehow I can keep myself in the room during the appointment, and remember that it isn't happening again, I think I'll be fine.

 

[Criada]

I'm glad you have something to focus on to help you cope
When is the appointment?

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

The appointment is May 21. I know that's like a month away, but that's the soonest I was able to get in. This will give me some time to prepare emotionally for this though. Hopefully. I'm trying to keep my anxiety down as much as I can until the appointment.

 

[emilygrace]

I'm sorry. How long has it been since your rape.

Seeing the doctor is difficult in any situation, especially this.

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

It's been 8 months. I should have gone to the doctor a long time ago, but I just couldn't. Hopefully I am okay, but it's still hard.

 

[RuthD]

I hope the doctor is good to you and I'm sure he/she will be. The first time is always hard. I'm praying for you.

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Thanks Ruth, it keeps getting closer and closer to my appointment and I'm scared.

 

[Butterfly]

Hon, I am so proud of you, and I know you are going to get through the appointment, just like you have everything else. The important thing is to remember that you survived the rape, and that everything from here on out is the healing from that. But you survived that, which means that you are strong, and that there is a reason for you to still be here. Hold tight on to that, and don't let go of it. You're young and you have a whole life ahead of you, and I am so proud of you for making these steps to work on your healing. It WILL be worth it, and you will continue to heal. Keep your head up, and remember...

Keep breathing. And, you are beautiful. And, God loves you.

*hugs*

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I'm so scared, it keeps getting closer and closer. My doctor appointment is next Friday already...that's only a week away!

 

[bubblefish]

You will be fine Hun. I know it is extremely hard right now but try to practice your breathing and do things that relax you if you can leading up to it.

Thinking of you

 

[Butterfly]

You are going to get through this just fine hun. You have made it this far already. Just like everyone else said, practice your breathing and try to find ways to relax yourself and pamper yourself before you go. This is just one more step closer to being healed, and to getting yourself back to as much normalcy as possible. *hugs* still thinking about and praying for you always hun. Hang in there. You lived through the rape, through these last 10 months, you will live through this week because you are strong and you can do it!

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

The doctor appointment is Friday. I'm trying to relax and not think about it much, but it's hard. I held one of the babies from church yesterday for a couple hours, and it just reminded me that I could be a mother at my age. I know I'm probably not pregnant, but just seeing how close I came to it, its scary. I will make it through this week but I could really use a lot of prayer right now.

 

[Criada]

Praying, sweetie

You are doing so well.. just hang in there and keep going.

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I'm not doing well. I'm scared to death.

 

[bubblefish]

How did it go Hun?