Doctor Appointment-First one really since it happened...

[brandon.j]

You're doing very well facing what you have. I know it's difficult and I know therapy can be difficult. A therapist will bring up painful things, but as unpleasant as it is they are doing it to help you. It takes time to heal and you're being very brave in opening up and posting your experience here. There are a lot of victims who can't even do that. Please stick with it no matter how unpleasant it gets because after you got through to the other side you'll look back and be grateful you did.

You'll be in my prayers, God Bless

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I feel like such a failure. Like I'm worthless. Like there is no point in fighting this anymore. I'm in pain. Crying. I just want everything to be over.

 

[Johnnz]

Such feelings are so common with abused women. But that's not How God sees you and its around His total acceptance of and commitment to you that allows you hope to rebuild.

Bless you
John
NZ

 

[Criada]

You are worth a great deal, sweetie :hug;
Praying.

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

ItSIt hurts and I'm filled with questions that no one can answer. I just want to be able to live like everyone else. Instead I face flashbacks, nightmares, and panic attacks. There are times when I wish the guy who raped me just killed me too because what I'm going thru right now is awful.

 

[Angeldove97]

Sweetie, I was raped almost 6 years ago. I still have questions, I still have fears, I still feel awful sometimes. I have grown in leaps and bounds since that day. It took me a few years just to get back on my feet, but I did it-- through the grace of God, I was able to heal and move on and be able to love a very special Christian Brother.

You know what the big breakthrough for me was? Just be able to admit it and talk about it. It helped me to realize that yes it did happen, it was not my fault, and I was so much stronger than to just give up on myself. But yes it takes time and it takes a lot of effort.

I know it will take more time than just these 6 years, but I am so much more than just a survivor of rape. Soon I'll be getting engaged and I'll have the joy of planning a wedding with my family and I just love what God has helped me to become.

Take it one day at a time and don't get discouraged with taking baby steps. If you're scared about something, acknowledge it and then praise yourself for getting through it.

Let me know if you'd like to chat--- just send me a pm. Your in my thoughts and prayers

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

It's almost been a year since it happened. Yet I still have to deal with the damage he did to my body. I'm having a really hard time with it lately.

 

[Johnnz]

I would love to say that 'poof' and all the pain goes. But that doesn't happen. Why? Because that experience is etched with your memories. That's what happens to humans - we remember things and they can get planted into our very being. That's why healing is a process.

That's also why having caring, supportive people around you is so helpful during the healing process with all its bad times.

John
NZ

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

It just hurts so bad sometimes. I've been so emotional lately.