This phase is very needed and very important for you have to find a faith in Jesus which is living not just inherited. i hope and pray that you will not doubt Jesus, though i know you will, but the lesson we have to learn in life is that Jesus is much more trustworthy than our parents or other Christians.
So yes die to old and come to life in the newe. You will never regret it if you end up following Jesus because you found a true faith. Jesus is awesome i love Him with my life, but i went through the same battle you go through now. Such were dark days with a lot of doubt and unbelief. Only when i dared build on my faith in Jesus did things change for the better.
Be of good courage.
An invitation to The Chosen.
God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.
God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!
In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!
His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!
Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'
To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.
For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.
Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.
Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.
The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!
Love