I was trying to understand why I don’t value the spiritual things God is giving me in my life compared to the more earthly things I want Him to do (mainly heal my 51 year old wife of the strokes she has had).
It's human nature, I guess, to have a very limited, temporal, right-here-right-now view of things. We get to thinking this is the Big Show, that the short, often troubled time we spend on this globe is the really important thing. God, though, has His eyes on eternity and is working in our lives now in preparation for us joining Him in that endless expanse of time. After a few billion years have passed, I'm sure we'll look back at the fraction of an eye-blink of time we lived on this planet and understand why God didn't seem as concerned about it as we were. It's pretty hard, though, to take God's eternal view of things when you're hurting really badly. Unfortunately, as difficult as it might be emotionally to take the long view, it is the truth of the matter and explains why God, as I said, isn't on pins-and-needles about how much we enjoy our brief time on this planet. I mean, His own Son had a pretty horrendous time of it in his short, 33 years of earthly life. But the eternal pay-off has been something else!
God may heal your wife. Or, He may not. His priority isn't how well physically we are, but our spiritual health. He'll strip us of everything but Him, if He has to, in order to get our attention, and get us to take Him seriously, submitting to, and depending upon Him constantly as He made us to do. I've got my own physical issues I've been dealing with for years now. No healing, though I've often asked for it. But God's grown me in my relationship with Him, enormously. The physical disability stuff is no fun, but God is still good, preparing me for the forever yet to come.
I finally came up with the reason: I no longer believe that heaven will be my destination. Partly this is knowing myself, and the fact that if He doesn’t heal her, I will likely never forgive Him(please don’t start about God doesn’t need forgiveness). All of the sudden the lack of worth made sense. So I ask you, do God’s eternal promises matter if you aren’t going to heaven?
Well, insofar as His eternal promises run in both good and bad directions, yes, I think they do matter, regardless of which promises one is going to encounter. "Eternal" is a veeerrrry long time. More so, I should think, apart from God, alone in the darkness of hell, having only yourself for company for all of eternity. It's a strange thing to think, but snubbing God on this side of the grave because He wouldn't aid your wife the way you'd like, will mean an eternity of separation from her on the other side of the grave. Kind of cutting off your nose to spite your face, it seems to me...
Of course, His promises of an eternal life with Him in the light, love and holiness of His Person, wouldn't be of any interest, I should think, to the person who despises Him.