- Jun 13, 2018
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- Baptist
- Marital Status
- Single
This is my first post here.
I feel like I have become a disappointment to my family.
Growing up I was considered a smart kid. I would always do puzzles and read and that sort of thing. Even won Bible Quizzing in high school. People would always tell me that I should go to school to become an engineer and stuff. I didn't end up going to college right after high school, (first major disappointment) but after a year of people constantly telling me to, I started college. The school year started ok, but it progressively went downhill and I got a 2.0 GPA and could not go back based on that (school rule)(second major disappointment). Upon getting home, I got a job at KFC, I enjoyed it there, but I regularly received negative feedback from family and friends about wasting my time in a job like that. (fourth major disappointment) After about 8 months there, I had to quit because of joint problems (EDS) and in the 5 months since then, I can't seem to get another job (fifth major disappointment). There it's also the disappointment from my family (myself included) that I have never been in a relationship (but that's a topic for a different thread).
Lately I just sit around the house. I've lost the enthusiasm to do very much. (leading to more disappointment from nut parents that I'm not doing anything) I go to bible study/church 3 times a week, but that is about it.
I feel like a lot of my problems branch from my very limited ability to communicate with people (Aspergers). My parents / grandparents are all very extroverted and can't seem to understand why I have trouble with talking to people.
I'm 21 and feel like the last 3 years of my life have been a failure.
How should I reconcile this situation with them / let them know how I feel about things without having things get any worse?
I feel like I have become a disappointment to my family.
Growing up I was considered a smart kid. I would always do puzzles and read and that sort of thing. Even won Bible Quizzing in high school. People would always tell me that I should go to school to become an engineer and stuff. I didn't end up going to college right after high school, (first major disappointment) but after a year of people constantly telling me to, I started college. The school year started ok, but it progressively went downhill and I got a 2.0 GPA and could not go back based on that (school rule)(second major disappointment). Upon getting home, I got a job at KFC, I enjoyed it there, but I regularly received negative feedback from family and friends about wasting my time in a job like that. (fourth major disappointment) After about 8 months there, I had to quit because of joint problems (EDS) and in the 5 months since then, I can't seem to get another job (fifth major disappointment). There it's also the disappointment from my family (myself included) that I have never been in a relationship (but that's a topic for a different thread).
Lately I just sit around the house. I've lost the enthusiasm to do very much. (leading to more disappointment from nut parents that I'm not doing anything) I go to bible study/church 3 times a week, but that is about it.
I feel like a lot of my problems branch from my very limited ability to communicate with people (Aspergers). My parents / grandparents are all very extroverted and can't seem to understand why I have trouble with talking to people.
I'm 21 and feel like the last 3 years of my life have been a failure.
How should I reconcile this situation with them / let them know how I feel about things without having things get any worse?
