I have always believed there is a god. I have been through periods of intense belief, periods of doubt, periods where I believed there was a god but maybe I was following the wrong one...I have always ended back at Christianity. However I'm now in a period of doubt to the point that I wonder whether there's a god full stop...and I feel nothing. No conviction, no emotion, just apathy towards Jesus (and all other religious beliefs). I have sacrificed so much for my faith over the years; how is this possible? I've heard that anybody who rejects god's law or fails to repent never really knew god, so what exactly was I feeling? This is one of many questions that causes my lack of faith. Or has god just hardened my heart because of my lack of faith, so I'm not longer able to believe? Has anybody else had a similar experience but eventually turned back to God?