I think it's a good sign that you feel better when reading our encouraging words. This tells me your heart is responding to God's truth even if your feelings are confused right now. And we all need to drink in His truth everyday, because we walk around in this world that is under the sway of the evil one. I bring 3X5 cards with Scriptures and Scripture prayers to work with me. I keep them close by, sometimes on my desk, sometimes in my bag, so I can refer to them often, as needed, which is often.
So definitely keep checking in here and reading lots of posts, but also consider printing out posts that really help you. Plug your pockets and purse full of them. Here's a great one to start with. Power2theweak posted it on another thread:
Its easy to be discouraged when things are going badly. But if you’re a member of Gods true Church he has a positive answer for all things.
You say: “Its impossible” God says: “All things are possible” (Luke 18:27)
You say: “ I’m too tired” God says: “I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: “ Nobody really loves me” God says: “I love you” (John 3:16)
You say: “I can’t go on” God says: “My Grace is sufficient” (II Cor 12:9; Psalms 91:15)
You say: “I can’t figure things out” God says: “I will direct your steps” (Proverbs 3: 5-6)
You say: “I can’t do it” God says: “You can do all things” (Philippians 4:13)
You say: “I’m not able” God says: “I am able” (II Cor:9:8)
You say: “It’s not worth it” God says: “It will be worth it” (Romans 8:28) Hallelujah!!!
You say: “I can’t forgive myself” God says: “I forgive you” (I John 1-9; Romans 8:1)
You say: “I can’t manage” God says: “I will supply all your needs" (Philippians 4:19)
You say: “I’m afraid” God says: “I have not given you a spirit of fear" (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: “I’m always worried and frustrated" God says: “ Cast all your cares on me" (I Peter 5:7)
You say: “I don’t have enough faith” God says: “I’ve given everyone a measure of faith" (Romans 12:3)
You say: “I’m not smart enough” God says: “I give you wisdom” (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: “I feel alone” God says: “I will never leave you or forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5)
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You say: “Its impossible” God says: “All things are possible” Luke 18:27
Also, if you can find some online teachers you like, if you have regular access to a computer, teachers who build you up, listen to them daily. There have been days, many of them , when I have had to listen to online teachers all day long because my own thoughts were not safe to be alone with.
www.lifetoday.org/beth is my favorite. Just click the link, and then click on Watch Beth Online, then choose from literally dozens of teachings. What's great, aside from the incredibly healing teachings, is that they are in twenty minute segments. Most of us can squeak that out each day, and it's so important to get that truth into us. I also love this one:
In Touch Ministries :: Video Archives - In Touch Ministries - Dr. Charles Stanley 2009
and their radio archives, also:
Audio Archives - In Touch Ministries - Dr. Charles Stanley 2009
I'm praying for you.
Blessings, A