- Jan 11, 2018
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- Christian
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- Single
Hello everyone, I'm a new member and I'm happy to support everyone and have them in my prayers. I grew up in a Lutheran church and have upheld a lot of the Christian teaches I've been taught. As I became an adult after high school I moved to another city and haven't been attending church but I always kept my faith in God and my prayers. One of my main struggles as an adult was to find a man I connected with and start a serious relationship. I tried the old fashion wait for the right person to come along method which kept me waiting for a decade with no one coming along. So three years ago I started online dating which has been the most painful experiences being a virgin. Every single guy I tried to get to know only wanted hookups. I became friends with one guy in particular who was an Arab Muslim who said and did the most hurtful things and I constantly forgave him. He was the first guy I had ever became close with . But he didn't want a relationship with me and admitted his intentions for me were just to hit and run. But the most hurtful was him constantly asking for a three some with him and his male cousin not caring I was a virgin. He would even put his cousin on three way on the phone to try to talk me into to it. After a while when he seen I wouldn't do it he completely cut off communication with me and said we couldn't talk or see each other once he started his family business as an owner of a hookah cafe. The year of 2017 was me trying to get over him but constantly running into to guys on the dating site that only wanted hookups even after knowing I was a virgin and being open about trying to move on. As the beginning of this year has started I cut off all contact with everyone I taliked to on the online dating sites and even changed my number. My anxiety started to kick in when I started getting dms from guys on my Instagram and Facebook page who seemed to have the same intentions as the guys on the dating sites. I'm starting this year as a new beginning for me and a journey to let go of resentment and hurt that I still have from the Arab Muslim guy I cared about. I'm kindly asking everyone from the bottom of my heart to pray for me in this journey of moving on and letting go.