I remember having some thoughts about a workplace. normal thoughts. like "not so good job. if they don't hire me. I don't care. who would want to work there anyway. I don't care if they do not call me."
They called me and ocd started telling me that I may have made a promise that I do not remember not to go there again.
I have 0 memories about it but a part of my subconscious thinks that there is a chance that ocd is right, because it rings some bells to it. I mean, the hypothetical scenarios of ocd, rings some bells to my subconscious but I can't prove to it, that it never happened.
My ocd is about promises to God and I try to avoid so much, that if the word promise pops up, I remember and get so anxious about it. but still I do not remember having any thoughts about promises for this job. if, in case, they popped up for a second, it was ocd related and without my will and they are not valid.
Worst case scenario of the ocd, is that maybe I was carefree and wanted to act cool by making a promise to God, just for fun, because I knew I would never go to that workplace, since I believed they would not call me again. I would remember it. but what if I made the mistake just for a second and was on purpose? and maybe that is why I do not remember it but maybe my subconscious does. could I really be that stupid?
They called me and ocd started telling me that I may have made a promise that I do not remember not to go there again.
I have 0 memories about it but a part of my subconscious thinks that there is a chance that ocd is right, because it rings some bells to it. I mean, the hypothetical scenarios of ocd, rings some bells to my subconscious but I can't prove to it, that it never happened.
My ocd is about promises to God and I try to avoid so much, that if the word promise pops up, I remember and get so anxious about it. but still I do not remember having any thoughts about promises for this job. if, in case, they popped up for a second, it was ocd related and without my will and they are not valid.
Worst case scenario of the ocd, is that maybe I was carefree and wanted to act cool by making a promise to God, just for fun, because I knew I would never go to that workplace, since I believed they would not call me again. I would remember it. but what if I made the mistake just for a second and was on purpose? and maybe that is why I do not remember it but maybe my subconscious does. could I really be that stupid?
