I guess I feel like I still kind of belong to the Catholic Church -- for example I have some friends that are fundamentalist christians and even though I no longer attend mass I still feel offended when someone criticizes the Catholic Church, as I would feel offended if someone talked bad about my sister even if I was in a fight with her at the time
I don't blame you. Christians shouldn't treat each other that way.
The thing is its not just my soul here it's that of my husband and baby, I want to follow the true path of Christ. A lot of what I'm reading in the library book goes a long way to explaining and making sense of what I didn't understand about th Catholic Church, but one doubt that keeps nagging me is the many Protestants who say the pope is of the devil and the bible where it says you will know them by their works, since the church has had such bad things in t lately
Those claims mostly come from the 16th Cent, when Catholics and Protestants were killing each other. And it's not that the Pope personally is of Satan. Rather, the concern is that the office is, not exactly Satanic (in my view) but inherently subject to abuse.
What do I mean by that?
* Over history, power slowly moved to Rome, such as the right to appoint bishops, which originally was local
* Over history the Pope's authority became greater and greater, until by the 16th Cent, the doctrine he endorsed was considered "irreformable." By the 19th Cent this extended to certain of his individual pronouncements.
As a result we have a church that has no controls. It considers its tradition unchallengeable. Its leader can make pronouncements that are considered infallible. Protestant Churches, including Presbyterians ones, have their problems. But at least we don't as a matter of principle prevent them from being dealt with.
I miss the church, the liturgy and tradition but how can I be sure it is true way of Christ?
Many Presbyterian churches have decent liturgy. If you want more, probably the closest to Presbyterianism would be Lutheranism. However in most PCUSA churches, the communion liturgy is based on ancient forms. The lack isn't liturgy, but (1) Prebyterian communion is typically monthly, not every Sunday,and (2) the lack of pageantry, what I've heard called "smells and bells." That was done as part of cleaning up worship that had accumulated many superstitious elements. But it's certainly possible to have very formal liturgy and good Protestant theology. If you really can't live with Presbyterian liturgy, Lutherans and certain Episcopal congregations are possible alternatives. I prefer our slightly less formal liturgy.
Mostly I worry of my baby -- will she be ok with a Protestant baptism or will she go to a bad place if something God forbid happened to her
If that's a concern, you should study Catholic theology as well as Protestant. There's a tendency for people to develop a superstitious attitude towards baptism. Catholics recognize Presbyterian baptism. Indeed there was recently a formal agreement to that effect between the PCUSA and the Catholic Church. (
Presbyterian Church (U.S.A.) - News & Announcements - Catholic, Reformed churches agree on baptism -- note that the PCUSA is the biggest Presbyterian denomination, but not one well regarded by most of those who post here. However I don't know of any reason why Catholics would fail to recognize baptisms done by the more conservative Presbyterian bodies either.) Baptism is important. It's a formal way for God to place his claim on us. It's a visible sign of a spiritual reality. But even Catholic no longer believe that if a child dies before being baptized there will be some problem. It's the spiritual reality that counts.
Most Catholics I know like my sister do not follow the church I e live in sim take birth control no confession but they insist the church is right so why they not follow it?
Catholic ethics, particularly in the sexual area, tends to be legalistic. A number of members of my congregation are former Catholics. That's the biggest reason they left. If you disagree with official Presbyterian policy on a few matters, that may be OK. But Catholics claim an authority that we don't claim. I don't see what sense it makes to be a Catholic if you don't follow all official policies. If you really believe that the Church speaks with God's authority, I would think you would obey. If you don't, you've got a fundamental disagreement with it.
I don't think Presbyterians believe in the real presence. That is another reason I would choose the Catholic Church over the Presbyterian.
Depends upon what you mean by the real presence. If you mean that Christ is actually present, and that we commune on Christ's body and blood, yes, we believe in that. Many Protestants don't, but Presbyterians and Lutherans do (though details differ between us). Where we disagree most seriously with Catholics is what I call the Real Absence: the Catholic idea that the bread and wine turn into the body and blood in such a way that they are no longer bread and wine. I think that's carrying things further than there is any justification for, into nonsense. Interestingly, because they don't want to say that we excrete Christ, it turns back into bread and wine as we digest it. Why not just say that the bread and wine are pointers to the spiritual reality, which is present in and through them.