hi rachel
i also can recommend e-sword. when you don´t lose yourself in it, it is a great tool !
god has many qualities.
in our times we like to only see the good ones that fit us well.
god sais it is because we have itching ears, we raise ourselves preachers that preach only what we want to hear, then afterwards we accuse god for the repercussions of our own arrogance.
but how can we please god if we don´t even know him and make him handy for us, pocket-size, a show, a provider only and not a just judge,entertainment, instead of the allmighty, allpowerfull etc. that the bible authorizes him to be ?
imagine we would have lived a few dozens of years before. war and famine and physical pain would have been something we would have encountered in our societies. if we would have read god´s laws, which are to protect us from our fallen state, we would have embraced them more eagerly.
so worldly riches (and we live in the richest century ever) can have also a downside. we lose grip for the essentials ! to me this only has become clearer after i have been in africa, where i saw what faith and hope poverty produces.
but the quality that surpasses all others, is love, that is beyond doubt
you also have to see that in those days people were very wicked and when they worshipped their other gods there was often prostitution involved or even killing of humans.
also a thought that matters: imagine god as the allmighty creator. when he looks at us human beings, there is not so much difference between good and evil people, we are only as ants regarded from his powerful and insightful position. what would you do if you were the master over the ants ? would you allow them to set their own rules, rules that would harm them ? maybe the ants would plan things and only you could see from your giant perspective what they really needed....
and i would like to encourage you to keep on asking until gode gives you answers you are satisfied with. there is no such thing as "quite clear"
pursue god, sister. you are young and there is a lot to be discovered
be greeted in christ
MB