I do have Scrupulousity, by the way. I don't know if that's relevant, but I should probably tell you just in case.
Also, this may be potentially triggering to someone else with OCD.
How do I do everything for God? And if I don't do something with the explicit purpose of "doing it for God", is it a sin? I've got it in my head that it is (I'm not 100% sure how much Scripture backs that) and it's causing me anxiety. I'm nervous to commit myself to anything if I can't find a religious motive behind it.
I'm worrying about my motives involving everything. Is getting my Driver's License a sin if I'm doing it for practicality's sake? Is taking care of my appearance and hygiene a sin 'cause I'm doing it to feel clean and better about myself? I recently started trying to wake up early with the hopes of getting my life together... Is that wrong because I'm not really doing it for God?
Does this make sense?
I kinda wanna ask my pastor and/or my mom, but I'm worried they'll think I'm ridiculous. Either everyone else is wayyy more moral than I am, and does everything for God's sake... Or they don't worry about this? Maybe I'm being ridiculous after all.
What are your thoughts? I kinda feel like I'm in a hypothetical limbo rn.
I want to offer you some things to consider.
First, not to offend anyone, but I don’t believe in conditions like OCD. I see it as being anxious and worrying more than most.
But we can consider what has already taken place in Christ. We consider Christ because Christ has defeated all these issues for you at his death and resurrection, so your healing is his gift of grace to you!
So, now how will what Jesus already accomplished for you manifest?
First you will have to commit to fight the good fight of faith, 1 Timothy 6:12. Timothy was in the same situation you are in, worry, crying, doubting, but look at what Apostle Paul said to him. Paul said he was mindful of Timothy’s tears, and told him to stir up the “gift” of God that was in him. 2 Timothy 1:1-8.
Every situation we face is spelled out in the gospel for us to follow exactly the same way to overcome. Nothing else people say is important if it doesn’t line up to the gospel, because the gospel “is the power of God unto salvation to everyone that believeth, Romans 1:16. Start reading your Bible from Romans to Jude for now. As you read pray for understanding - stop at certain verses and pray God enlighten your understanding as you read.
Also Paul told Timothy to stir up the gift that was in him. This gift is what God gives us to overcome difficult situations in our lives, 2 Timothy 1:7. Timothy had it. Paul had it. All Christians have it. You should have received power as a Christian, and if you did not at baptism, then go to your preacher who can lay His hands on you to receive the Power of Holy Spirit. If you have received the Holy Spirit, then ask God to reveal to you how to communicate with the Spirit.
For me, the Spirit edifies me and strengthens me when I’m faced with difficulty. Because it is not us that has the power to overcome it is God Himself through Jesus by His Spirit (Power) that enables you. Please see this and believe this. Because if you continue to judge yourself, try on your own to stop your thoughts and worry, and ruminating thoughts you are going to fail.
Follow what Paul told Timothy. Apostle Paul told us to follow him. Jesus gave the gospel to Paul and the other Apostles to move us from weakness to Power in Jesus.
We are not suppose to think we must do “anything” for God because we can’t. I understand you may have been taught wrong but when we think like this, we deny what Christ has done for us. Because it’s Christ that has made us acceptable to God, not us. We can never be acceptable to God, that’s why Jesus died for us, to make us righteous. So stop trying to be righteous when our Lord already made you righteous by his blood.
Or else he died for nothing, and you think you can stand righteous before God. We are not accepted of our own, only in Chris are we accepted. So thank God for what He has already done for you in Christ Jesus. So you don’t have to be good anymore, because we are not good, Chris makes us good.
To make this fact a reality, God crucified our old man, that is our “self” that always want to sin, on the cross with Christ, Galatians 2:20, Romans 6:8, Colossians 3:3. Now think about, if we are dead in Christ, then how do we now live. We are told to put off the old man, and put on the new man, Ephesians 4:22-24.
You see how now Galatians 2:20, and Ephesians 4:22-24 takes care of your OCD?
It’s the power of God that has done it - it has already been done in Christ. So, now, this is where the “fight the good fight of faith” comes in. Are you going to believe the gospel? Are you going to believe what God and Jesus has done for you? You must believe God’s truth. We have been blessed with grace, forgiveness, love, power, help.
So think on these things. Don’t do! Just believe! Focus on the truth of what God has done for you! Read your Bible and pray.
Thank you for your questions because I am helped also. We can ask questions, but we must spend time with the weapon God gave us - his word, and His Spirit, and ask Him!
The Spirit is sent to us from none other than Jesus Christ Himself, John 14:26.
May Gods bless you and enlighten you and cause you to operate in His Power!