Hey guys,
I tend to babble on, so I will try to make this quick and concise. For a couple years I have used Vicodin. I did not necessarily abuse it like you see on TV. I took 1 Vicodin per night. At times I would even go a week without having any because I either could care less to, or felt I should take a break from it. I do this because it helps me sleep, and actually helps me focus on tasks and gain interest in things. It doesn't really sedate me or make me loopy like it appears it does for most people.
Anyways, I had an obstacle approach me late last year, and I quickly prayed to God to help send guidance for me to resolve the issue. It appears the prayer was answered fairly quick. The thing is, due to guilt, I decided to offer up my usage of Vicodin in exchange of this prayer being answered. I then happily gave up my usage of Vicodin. It is a little less than a year later and I really miss the late night relaxation and ease of anxiety Vicodin brought me. I fear my temptations of breaking this promise, and I have prayed many times for these temptations to fade, but they come around very frequently.
Part of me wishes I never made the promise. Not because I want to use Vicodin, but because I don't want to break a promise to God. It is also hard for me to determine if God answered due to the vow I made, or if he was going to help me regardless of my promise? I know God is forgiving, but I don't want to break my promise simply because I know God will forgive me... I feel in that case I wouldn't deserve forgiveness. Lesson I have learned now is to not make promises to God so quickly and irrationally... However I am still stuck with my current predicament.
I don't think for a second anyone on here is honestly going to say "Yeah dude, it's all good go ahead and do it." but I really want to find some sort of comfort and understanding that I just cannot see right now.
I still have not broken my promise, and I may not for a long time. However, I find it hard pressed that I will keep this promise forever.
I tend to babble on, so I will try to make this quick and concise. For a couple years I have used Vicodin. I did not necessarily abuse it like you see on TV. I took 1 Vicodin per night. At times I would even go a week without having any because I either could care less to, or felt I should take a break from it. I do this because it helps me sleep, and actually helps me focus on tasks and gain interest in things. It doesn't really sedate me or make me loopy like it appears it does for most people.
Anyways, I had an obstacle approach me late last year, and I quickly prayed to God to help send guidance for me to resolve the issue. It appears the prayer was answered fairly quick. The thing is, due to guilt, I decided to offer up my usage of Vicodin in exchange of this prayer being answered. I then happily gave up my usage of Vicodin. It is a little less than a year later and I really miss the late night relaxation and ease of anxiety Vicodin brought me. I fear my temptations of breaking this promise, and I have prayed many times for these temptations to fade, but they come around very frequently.
Part of me wishes I never made the promise. Not because I want to use Vicodin, but because I don't want to break a promise to God. It is also hard for me to determine if God answered due to the vow I made, or if he was going to help me regardless of my promise? I know God is forgiving, but I don't want to break my promise simply because I know God will forgive me... I feel in that case I wouldn't deserve forgiveness. Lesson I have learned now is to not make promises to God so quickly and irrationally... However I am still stuck with my current predicament.
I don't think for a second anyone on here is honestly going to say "Yeah dude, it's all good go ahead and do it." but I really want to find some sort of comfort and understanding that I just cannot see right now.
I still have not broken my promise, and I may not for a long time. However, I find it hard pressed that I will keep this promise forever.