I was never tempted by Buddhism. I experienced the hippies of the late 60s and 70s, and it just made me nauseous. Weirdly enough, though, I have a strong philosophical/mystical streak in me. As a kid I was fascinated by Greek myth. When I dug deeper I found Greek philosophy. That led me to history and into the Byzantine Empire. That was my original intent in getting a history degree - to connect with all of that.
But I had a similar moment of crisis to what you describe. Who was I, as an American Midwesterner, to interpret the history of the eastern Mediterranean? My problem is that while I am American by birth, I feel no loyalty to it. For the most part Americans annoy me. I understand my economic privilege since I've seen 3rd world communities. I appreciate the sacrifices made to protect me, and understand why it is attached to patriotism. But I can't lie about how I feel. My heritage is Scottish, and I was always jealous of the way the Scots love their land - which is weird given how desolate it is. Anyway, I finally found something I could connect with in Confessional Lutheranism.
But I had a similar moment of crisis to what you describe. Who was I, as an American Midwesterner, to interpret the history of the eastern Mediterranean? My problem is that while I am American by birth, I feel no loyalty to it. For the most part Americans annoy me. I understand my economic privilege since I've seen 3rd world communities. I appreciate the sacrifices made to protect me, and understand why it is attached to patriotism. But I can't lie about how I feel. My heritage is Scottish, and I was always jealous of the way the Scots love their land - which is weird given how desolate it is. Anyway, I finally found something I could connect with in Confessional Lutheranism.
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