Quoted from the passage:
I believe the pathway to the unpardonable sin is a persistent denial of the voice of the Holy Spirit, or to deny an act so powerful of the Holy Spirit that God gives us over to total Spiritual blindness and ultimately death. Every time we deny the correction or voice of the Holy Spirit we are opening ourselves up for failure. So how does this blindness occur?
I feel I have done this
In a sense you are right, but you are not beyond salvation. First you need to know what salvation is. Salvation is faith in the cross to cover our sins. A person is saved by faith. Then we need to know what the cross is. The bible says "as it is appointed for man to die once, so Christ died once for sin". The appointment is for us to die once, so Christ died once for our life time of sins.
You are right that blindness can occur because of sin, and resisting the Holy Spirit takes us down that path. But it is blindness to the fact we can be saved, it is not that we can not be saved.
But the bible tells us in job that God often lets people go through trouble, trial, and I believe blindness, due to their sin. But then he calls to them to return, if they return, having seen what could happen to them if they continue to sin, they shall be restored. If they refuse the restoration, then they will die in their sins. Job calls it to die without knowledge. For it is knowledge or faith that saves.
Job 36:8-13
And if they are bound in chains and caught in the cords of affliction, then he declares to them their work and their transgressions, that they are behaving arrogantly. He opens their ears to instruction and commands that they return from iniquity.
If they listen and serve him, they complete their days in prosperity, and their years in pleasantness. But if they do not listen, they perish by the sword and die without knowledge. “The godless in heart cherish anger; they do not cry for help
when he binds them.
Job 33:19-30 “Man is also rebuked with pain on his bed and with continual strife in his bones, so that his life loathes bread, and his appetite the choicest food. His flesh is so wasted away that it cannot be seen, and his bones that were not seen stick out.
His soul draws near the pit, and his life to those who bring death. If there be for him an angel, a mediator, one of the thousand, to declare to man what is right for him, and he is merciful to him, and says, ‘Deliver him from going down into the pit; I have found a ransom; let his flesh become fresh with youth; let him return to the days of his youthful vigor’; then man prays to God, and he accepts him; he sees his face with a shout of joy, and he restores to man his righteousness. He sings before men and says: ‘
I sinned and perverted what was right, and it was not repaid to me. He has redeemed my soul from going down into the pit, and my life shall look upon the light.’ “
Behold, God does all these things, twice, three times, with a man, to bring back his soul from the pit, that he may be lighted with the light of life.
