That's fine, I'm not saying everyone is bad. But it's my experience things can change in an instant, even when they feel safe. I was at the top of my career, like you, although overworked a bit, ignoring the things around me.
I moved away from finance because of the hours. I was working too much and decided to get into real estate. I contacted a firm to help me find a job. There was a company near my home. They needed someone for two weeks and wanted to bring them on permanently. We treated it like a slot in. I loved it there.
But while I was there something came up and they scheduled an interview. It was a prestigious company with opportunities for advancement. They wanted me to take the job. I preferred the first. But they made a good offer and I took it.
That was the Lord's doing. It was always His plan to bring me home. He used my boss to do it. We got along well and she gave me special projects and lots of visibility. My co-worker applied for a position at the State Department and got in. But he didn't have a start date. She was grooming me for his job. We spent a lot of time together.
One day we were talking and she mentioned her companion. I asked what he did and she told me about him. She said, he used to work in investment banking. I'll never forget the twinkle in her eyes and cheshire grin. I said, used to? She replied, oh yeah he's retired. He did well and left at 40.
I was shocked! I was in my early thirties. Her words settled on me. She kept watching me and the wheels were turning. I read lots of books on business, real estate, and entrepreneurship. The seed was there. That comment blew my plans to smithereens. I intended to climb the ladder. But something switched on inside.
I started brainstorming. It was a daily exercise. I spent 15 minutes a day thinking of business ideas. When the opportunity to leave came I took it. I didn't know what I was going to do. But I had to go. I ended up going to culinary school and working in a wine shop. The store closed. The landlord bought out the lease. It was 25 years. We had 5 left. I was crushed.
I thought about working in the wine industry. But I ended up doing a stint at a company that went longer than expected. Now I'm back in finance on a different side and they want to hire me. I turned it down and came home for good.
I needed to get it out my system. I thrived in corporate America because I'm driven and know the game. But God had something else in mind. It took awhile to settle down. I had a Type-A high octane personality. Being home wasn't easy. I needed something to do. I doubled down on self-improvement. I was already doing it. But I went into overdrive. I poured all the passion and energy into my development until I figured out the next step.
I thought a mental block was enough to keep me in line, and I was hit by a serious spiritual attack and was forced to leave my job.
I went through one a few years ago. It was ugly. But it brought me home.
Now I have serious reservations about working again in corporate America. There is scripture on that subject, about separating yourself so as not to partake in the guilt of their sins.
That's a matter of conscience and I encourage you to seek the Lord's input. Everyone can't start a business. But maybe that's best in your case. Have you ever considered it?
~bella