Yeah,I know,I know that's clearly NOT in the Bible...Or is it ??? ! The Book of James seems to indicate something,which says Faith unto Works..."Faith" ,then,without Works Is not FAITH ! What do you do then,if,all your Life you have lived around the stuff of Christianity and even addressed God several times for Salvation i.e: Prayed and,were never SURE of it and you had,as it were,gone from Church Assembly to Church-Assembly never getting anywhere near to Having Complete-Assurance? And so,in between Churches you had gotten into a worser-mess than before,yet, Returned to God again... Is it Right for God to shut me out,with shrewdness,because of my Sinful-propensities? I guess God can do whatever HE pleased,at the end of the day... He does NOT need me! I never asked God to put me on this Cursed-Planet.I just don't like the way I always get NOTHING that I dreamed of...The simple-things of life ,that give Joy to a Man's heart.Never those things!!! That's God's way? Very Sad it's come down to this.I feel rejected,dejected,wretched,bitter,angry, despairing ,and now well,I guess I've had my filling of disappointments and personal-failure .There's NOTHING to look forward to except more misery,as my Life goes into further depths of pain! Why is God so cruel as he frustrates me and He does NOT seem to be phased at all! Ah well, naked I came...So,God,leaves me out naked and empty as well! I guess God doesn't desire for me to find any gladness before I die...Just sadness,as I go into further decline? Is that Your Way of "things"???(bitter-things and curses???) You want me to just melt away like that snail,in the Psalm? You want to take Vengeance??? I did not believe You'd EVER treat me like I was just a piece of Trash,but now,I do!