I posted on here end of Nov 2016 about some anxiety that I had newly experienced. Suffice to say its kept a tight grip on me ever since. Ive truly tried to fight it but recently ive started having panic/anxiety attacks over it. Its honestly the worst thing I have ever dealt with in my life ever. I was able to distract myself with video games or hanging out with friends but that doesn't even work anymore. During the past 5 months ive also developed some severe OCD which makes me aware of my breathing constantly among other things.
I dont know, I think its just a combination of everything. The severe stress is just pushing me to a breaking point I guess and thats where the anxiety/panic attacks come in. I have a nearly countless list of fears/anxieties at this point which im always thinking of. Its almost as if the fears become more irrational as each day passes. I am an analytical INTJ personality type. I cant help but think all the time. Its all I do. Before all this, I could do great things at work and in my spare time. Now all I do is sit around wrestling anxious thoughts trying to keep it together.
I just feel hopeless I guess, since this has been going on so long. I just feel so entirely alone when the panic/anxiety attacks come on. Its the absolute worst most helpless feeling in the world. I often think, what will become of me if I go crazy or cant function (i.e. go to work)? I used to not care about being alone, in fact I even preferred it at times, but now it makes me anxious to be alone in this struggle.
I am going to the doctors soon to be tested for Hypothyroidism as I have literally every symptom. It would lift a heavy burden off my shoulders if Hypothyroidism was causing this. If thats not it then I guess ill be seeing a therapist or something. This has to be dealt with one way or the other.
I could really use some prayers, I pray for others and myself everyday but so far I feel as if they've not been heard. I dont know if this is something I created myself or is a physical thing (i.e. hypothyrodism). My brother mentioned it could be a spirit of anxiety. But I dont know, just want it to stop.
Any replies welcome.
I dont know, I think its just a combination of everything. The severe stress is just pushing me to a breaking point I guess and thats where the anxiety/panic attacks come in. I have a nearly countless list of fears/anxieties at this point which im always thinking of. Its almost as if the fears become more irrational as each day passes. I am an analytical INTJ personality type. I cant help but think all the time. Its all I do. Before all this, I could do great things at work and in my spare time. Now all I do is sit around wrestling anxious thoughts trying to keep it together.
I just feel hopeless I guess, since this has been going on so long. I just feel so entirely alone when the panic/anxiety attacks come on. Its the absolute worst most helpless feeling in the world. I often think, what will become of me if I go crazy or cant function (i.e. go to work)? I used to not care about being alone, in fact I even preferred it at times, but now it makes me anxious to be alone in this struggle.
I am going to the doctors soon to be tested for Hypothyroidism as I have literally every symptom. It would lift a heavy burden off my shoulders if Hypothyroidism was causing this. If thats not it then I guess ill be seeing a therapist or something. This has to be dealt with one way or the other.
I could really use some prayers, I pray for others and myself everyday but so far I feel as if they've not been heard. I dont know if this is something I created myself or is a physical thing (i.e. hypothyrodism). My brother mentioned it could be a spirit of anxiety. But I dont know, just want it to stop.
Any replies welcome.
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