Hello C Johnson, it was normal for me when I was a younger Christian. It has to do with the 1/2 truths and lies that we all hear from Satan and his demons regularly (as they try to convince us that we, for instance, aren't really Christians, because no "real" Christian would ever think or say or do something like we just did and, of course, that God doesn't love us, and He never did .. fun stuff like that).
The cure is to be renewing your mind daily in the word of God (so that you come to know exactly what it says/teaches), and then by choosing to listen to God/choose to take Him at His very word/fully believe what He says .. alone, instead of listening to what your feelings and/or Satan are telling you in the moment, no matter how convincing your feelings or Satan's words may seem to you.
It is very hard to do, especially at first, because it's hard to believe God when Satan gets you thinking AND feeling that the Bible may not be true after all, at least for you anyway. So, whenever you feel troubled, guilty (for no reason) and confused about who you are in Christ, refuse to listen to those thoughts and feelings, no matter how persuasive them may seem, by taking them "
captive" ..
2 Corinthians 10:5 and then by giving them over to the Lord Jesus to deal with instead, over and over and over again, as necessary.
2 Corinthians 10
5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
I believe that this is the principle way that we obey James 4:7's command to us, and the way then, that we receive the promise that goes along with that command when we persist in obeying it.
James 4
7 Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you
So, if it is your heart's desire to please/honor/glorify God, then you should choose to believe/trust Him, by ~always~ taking Him at His word (again, no matter what your feelings and/or Satan are telling you instead). It's pretty hard to do at first (to fight off the feelings that you have and choose to listen to the "still small voice" of God instead ..
1 Kings 19:12), but God will help you if you ask Him to, and when you fail to do so, no worries, just follow these instructions ..
1 John 1:9 and then get back at it (it does become easier and easier to do with practice, and Satan will eventually leave you alone, at least for awhile anyway
, just like God, in
James 4:7, promises us that he will.
God bless you!
--David
p.s. - when Satan is trying to convince you that you aren't worthy to be called a Christian (and/or that you aren't a Christian and never were), just go back to the foot of the Cross and remember all that the Lord did to save you, and therefore, how VERY much He loves you (both from and to everlasting). And always remember that God is omniscient and omnipresent, which means that He knew EXACTLY who and what He was getting when He chose to save you, and that He went ahead and saved you anyway