I just woke up from a terrible dream. It involved one of the OCD theme I have. In the nightmare though an OCD theme projected on to a dead family member. And said person did something horrific and disgusting to another family member. My heart was completely broken in the nightmare. I wanted to lie down in a ditch and give up on life. I hate that I dreamed something like that. Usually, I never dream unless I've been forgetting them this whole time. I feel sick. I thanked God that the nightmare wasn't true (though OCD makes you doubt). I don't think I can back to sleep after this.