When I was in the hospital someone was playing a song, but I heard singing about me losing my soul and going to hell.
I can't stop being afraid of this delusion help
seek assistance from a therapist and a psychiatric and stuff like that. try not to take this matter too lightly by being a beacon of hope for yourself. it's the key things such as liking to cope, finding your own stride in lots of categories of life.
try not to have a short list of coping mechanisms and use your convictions and principles to center yourself.
do things right also in your own religion while keeping no private resentments and doubts about it.
hmmm...maybe supply yourself with books that sings to you per se so to speak?
with informations, perhaps you can discover more things.
i'm sure as time goes on, you should be able to handle things with hopefully no problems.
talk about it with your family perhaps?
just use good energies and vibes. determine what is best for you.
eventually, your coping mechanisms might begin.
and perhaps, you will be proud with how you handled yourself one day.
just get things under control mentally and under control in other healthy ways.
there's no shame in asking for help too.
travel throughout your life with friends and family for they also can help depending upon the situation.
find sanctuaries you like to be at and stuff like that too.
i for one have sympathy for you but look to others on this site as well.
so take a good look at the options you have and choose wisely.
challenge yourself in working harder with the true nature of yourself as time goes on.