- Feb 14, 2018
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- Married
Hi everyone. I just joined this forum today - forgive me if I mess up on etiquette.
My husband and I have been married for two years. It has been an awfully tumultuous two years, and recently it felt to me like we were turning a corner. From the beginning of our marriage we have fought like cats - mostly because of me. I have had a very short fuse with him, which I can’t really explain because I don’t express a lot of anger toward anyone else in my life, but nonetheless. I have been in therapy consistently and I am able to recognize some substantial changes in my ability to recognize my emotions and determine healthier ways of response. I still fail at this often, but compared to where I was two years ago, it’s a big change.
My husband was very gracious toward me with this for about a year. He forgave me often and I learned how to take responsibility for my actions and apologize. Lately, though, he has not been so patient. Any time I communicate what I perceive to be the slightest amount of attitude, it is met with what I perceive to be rage from him. I often then respond back with rage which of course escalates the conflict. We will often discuss the events after they happen and can never agree on the true happenings and how one person communicated or responded.
We went to marital counseling in the fall of 2017. We went to four sessions. Our counselor suggested that we begin individual counseling combined with marital, so we did that. I started seeing my own therapist and my husband went to an individual session with our therapist. Then he quit and said counseling doesn’t help him, will never help him, and it’s a waste of money for marriage counseling too. So I have kept going on my own but he refuses to go.
My husband also suffers from chronic pain & depression, which can exacerbate some of our issues. I have encouraged him to talk to a therapist about these things too, but again, he refuses. He also will not go with me to workshops or marriage seminars put on by the church.
Right now we are not speaking. He approached me about a week ago after a big fight we had a few days earlier, wanting to talk. I told him I did not know what there was to talk about; we don’t agree on anything. He blames me for every conflict, every argument, ever problem in our marriage. He has said numerous times that if it were not for me we would not fight in our marriage. To me that just signals his deep misunderstanding of his contributions to our dynamic, and of the way he hurts me. He mentioned separation and divorce. I have always maintained that I don’t want to separate or divorce. He brings the topic up often.
So I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to handle this situation. Typically, I feel very convicted by the Holy Spirit regarding the ways I have sinned against my husband in the fight and I go to him and repent and apologize and ask for forgiveness. He rarely apologizes to me. I do recognize where I went wrong in our conflict, in our marriage, but I do not want to continue through the same cycles. If my husband refuses to take responsibility for his actions, what am I supposed to do?
He will not go to a counselor with me; he will not go to a counselor by himself; he will not take responsibility and maintains that all of our problems are my fault and I am hopeless. He is not actively pursuing the Lord at all, and hasn’t in years. I am in therapy, I am pressing in to my faith and spiritual growth and think I have grown a lot...I don’t know what more I can do.
I am caught between feeling there must be something I can and should be doing to save my marriage, and feeling like there is nothing more I can do.
My husband and I have been married for two years. It has been an awfully tumultuous two years, and recently it felt to me like we were turning a corner. From the beginning of our marriage we have fought like cats - mostly because of me. I have had a very short fuse with him, which I can’t really explain because I don’t express a lot of anger toward anyone else in my life, but nonetheless. I have been in therapy consistently and I am able to recognize some substantial changes in my ability to recognize my emotions and determine healthier ways of response. I still fail at this often, but compared to where I was two years ago, it’s a big change.
My husband was very gracious toward me with this for about a year. He forgave me often and I learned how to take responsibility for my actions and apologize. Lately, though, he has not been so patient. Any time I communicate what I perceive to be the slightest amount of attitude, it is met with what I perceive to be rage from him. I often then respond back with rage which of course escalates the conflict. We will often discuss the events after they happen and can never agree on the true happenings and how one person communicated or responded.
We went to marital counseling in the fall of 2017. We went to four sessions. Our counselor suggested that we begin individual counseling combined with marital, so we did that. I started seeing my own therapist and my husband went to an individual session with our therapist. Then he quit and said counseling doesn’t help him, will never help him, and it’s a waste of money for marriage counseling too. So I have kept going on my own but he refuses to go.
My husband also suffers from chronic pain & depression, which can exacerbate some of our issues. I have encouraged him to talk to a therapist about these things too, but again, he refuses. He also will not go with me to workshops or marriage seminars put on by the church.
Right now we are not speaking. He approached me about a week ago after a big fight we had a few days earlier, wanting to talk. I told him I did not know what there was to talk about; we don’t agree on anything. He blames me for every conflict, every argument, ever problem in our marriage. He has said numerous times that if it were not for me we would not fight in our marriage. To me that just signals his deep misunderstanding of his contributions to our dynamic, and of the way he hurts me. He mentioned separation and divorce. I have always maintained that I don’t want to separate or divorce. He brings the topic up often.
So I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to handle this situation. Typically, I feel very convicted by the Holy Spirit regarding the ways I have sinned against my husband in the fight and I go to him and repent and apologize and ask for forgiveness. He rarely apologizes to me. I do recognize where I went wrong in our conflict, in our marriage, but I do not want to continue through the same cycles. If my husband refuses to take responsibility for his actions, what am I supposed to do?
He will not go to a counselor with me; he will not go to a counselor by himself; he will not take responsibility and maintains that all of our problems are my fault and I am hopeless. He is not actively pursuing the Lord at all, and hasn’t in years. I am in therapy, I am pressing in to my faith and spiritual growth and think I have grown a lot...I don’t know what more I can do.
I am caught between feeling there must be something I can and should be doing to save my marriage, and feeling like there is nothing more I can do.