Argh!!!!!!

[Manna]

Okay, does anyone just get sick of having PCOS? My symptoms are completely out of control lately, and I'm about ready to pull my hair out!! (Read into that what you will...LOL)

So yes, we need to handle this with grace and dignity, but sometimes I just get ticked off about it.

Anyone else?? Please join me in my venting! =)

 

[Tsadde]

I hear you!

Yes, I am totally tired of PCOS.

I hate, hate, hate the fact that I can't eat like a regular person and that after years of dieting and deprivation I am still waaaaaaay too fat. I hate being judged and dismissed by people who are eating baked potato and sour cream and French bread with butter while I munch on yet another lettuce leaf. I could spit fuzzballs when a doctor says "You have all these embarassing PCOS symptoms because you are fat." or even "Would you even consider trying to lose weight?" when I've been trying to do nothing else most of my adult life. I feel betrayed by diet plans and programs (for which I paid plentymoney that should have gone to people who were starving for other reasons) that have left my metabolism in a state that causes me to gain more and more while I eat less and less. I loathe exercise that creates nothing and goes nowhere and leaves me too sore or too injured and too tired to go to work or actually do something productive. When a thin person eating a sandwich (with bread on both sides!) suggests yet another diet plan they are lucky if I can remember the father-forgive-them-for-they-know-not-what-they-do prayer before I.....
I resent the damage done to my arteries and heart and kidneys -not to mention the zits, bald spots, dark skin patches and beard.
I reject the projections of a shorter lifespan.

BUT
I have learned not to judge people by their outward appearance. (most of the time. I still have to work at not judging healthy energetic skinny rich people.)
I have felt God's arms around me and have known the joy of the Lord.
I have learned to thank God that I can walk; I can see colour; I can hear music and baby babbles; I can feel a warm summer breeze; I can think for myself, I can choose to get out of bed; I can express my opinions; I'm not harassed or manipulated or deceived by people who only want me only for my body; I don't have to post my picture here; I don't have to fear eternal rejection. I can thank God that I am loved perfectly and eternally by Jesus who would rather have died than live without me. To Him, the most wonderful powerful being in the universe, I am beautiful and worthy of time and attention and extravagant gifts. I can thank Him that His power is perfected in weakness. When I am ashamed of my appearance I can hear Him say, "Don't be afraid. Fear not. I have not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."

Had I been strong and healthy and beautiful and emotionally tough I may not have recognized my need to depend on Him for everything -especially for love and approval. It would have been so easy to seek solace elsewhere. Had my neediness not made it easier to receive the kind of love He has shown me I could never give away what I had never known.

I don't like PCOS. I think it stinks. I think illness is invented and administered by Satan. I truly believe that one day I will be healed of this -and a bunch of other stuff, (last year I had to use a cane and now, praise God!, I am walking on my own without pain!) but I'm not waiting for that all-better day to come before I say, "Thank you. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Father God. Thank you dear Abba. Thank you. Thank you....thank you......thank you.....

 

[ladyinwaiting16]

I agree with u gals, it is upsetting to have PCOS and not be able to lose the weight as easily as others. also having all the other symptoms that go with PCOS. Plus having people not understanding ur problems losing the weight.

 

[Manna]

Yupp. Glad I'm not the only one struggling with it. Grr.

Looks like I'm not having a period this month either. I just had 2 in a row, and didn't know what to do with myself!! When I started at the beginning of November, it shocked me! I hadn't had a period 2 months in a row all year! I know it's due to the weight loss, so praise God!! Maybe it's just delayed this month...lol!

 

[cherishmj]

All I can say is DITO DITO DITO to all of you!!!

 

[Katryna]

Yes, I have felt that way too... but I have seen interviews and testimonies of people who are dealing with much worse: MS, ALS, breast cancer... suddenly, PCOS doesn't seem like such a horrible thing. I can live with it. It's not terminal. If people can't see past my weight or other symptoms, that's THEIR handicap, not mine.

 

[Caitlin.ann]

I was just diagnosed and I HATE it. So far no one has had any issues getting pregnant but I'm terrified I'll be the exception. I want children (someday) so badly, but I'm terrified I'm infertile.