I am new here. I was molested by my older brother when I was a pre-teen and again as a teenager. This has made me feel creepy. And I am so angry at him. It's been over 20 years and I felt so alone. It is especially hard on holidays because most in the family "get-togethers" don't know and the few that do act like nothing ever happened. How do I act? It hurts when I just want to leave and don't want to spend time with any of my family because of this one person who almost damaged my life. And yes I have been through counseling before. And I thought I had forgiven him several times. Just hurts a lot. Anyone else been through this... how do you get through these family "get-togethers". Suggestions on forgiveness and moving on???