Hi! God bless you! ✟✟✟ This is by no means an indictment or accusation towards any particular person, but I want to share with you an observation that I have made.
I have noticed some of my friends in the faith who lean so heavily on writings by other humans and not the scriptures that they begin to lack in scriptural knowledge. Instead of searching the scriptures diligently for the truth, they instead lean heavily on these writings. I would say also, that these writings are not necessarily heretical - in fact it might be good belief. But these particular people really suffer spiritually as they do not read the scriptures 'naked,' that is, reading the barebones text without any study aides.
Now this is more or less advice than an indictment of guilt. But I am of the belief that reading the scriptures is not just an activity that engages the brain. What I mean is, it is not merely a book of studying like any other book. Now it is good to for it to be studied with proper practice, but hear me out.
The Bible is very much alive and breathing. When one reads the bible, it is very much a spiritual experience. You are basically entering into the presence of God. Just reading the bible and meditating on it has immense spiritual benefits. The scriptures wash the mind, the bible cleanses the soul. It is very much an experience unto itself.
I think some men look at 'theology' like some other men may look at 'geology.' That is, they approach God like one studying rock formations. They can tell you very much about different rock formations and other geologic patterns.
But God is not a rock to be studied. He is the Rock on which we stand. He is not merely a subject for study and conjecture. We are His loving subjects. The New Covenant, of which we are apart of, is very much a
marriage covenant to Jesus Christ.
Paul Washer had a great illustration, involving his wife. He said, his wife's doctor knows so much about his wife: her medical history, including any health issues she might have had, past surgeries, blood type, etc. But, Washer said, her doctor did not know his wife like he does. Why? Every night he has dinner with his wife. He sits and talks to her, listens to her, understands her, and loves her very dearly.
This is a great illustration. Not that I am against learning of God. On the contrary, knowledge about God is wonderful. But there is great value in focusing on growing in love of Jesus Christ more so than growing in theological knowledge.
Now I notice many put the knowledge of God above the love for God. I wish to help people avoid this, so this is not an attack on you or anything.
That said, I am not against anything you said you are planning to do. Read what you want, study and acquire knowledge of the scriptures to your hearts content. This is merely my advice: make sure you grow in genuine, humble, innocent love for the Lord Jesus Christ. This is ultimately a marriage covenant. So study what love is and practice this type of love towards the Lord Jesus Christ and towards other humans. Then you will enter into the true meat of the faith.
I love you, God bless you!
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