- Jun 12, 2017
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- Presbyterian
- Marital Status
- Married
Hi my name is Tommy. I’m 42 and I’ve been a Christian since I was 8, and been in church my whole life. I didn’t have many friends in HS, so when I found some with common interests (sports) they weren’t Christians. I should have turned the other way, but I didn’t. I decided to fit in with them and listen to what they listened to, go where they went, and acted like they acted.
In the meantime I listened to horrible music that took Gods name in vain repeatedly because they did. Some of the songs said some really disrespectful stuff about Him and it really troubled me. I would “turn the radio down” when those parts came up. All the while I justified it by telling myself I wasn’t the one saying it so that made it ok. After a couple of years my conscience couldn’t take it any more. I dumped all of the music and told God I was sorry and felt relieved.
Fast forward about 10 years later, the guilt of how I disrespected God’s name fell on me like a pile of rocks. Add on top of that the passages in Hebrews about sinning willfully and you know the rest. My heart is like melted wax.
Where I need clarity is not whether I failed to honor Gods name, I know I didn’t. I need clarity on whether I sinned in such a hard-hearted way (Hebrews 6 &10) that Infit the description of those verses. I need to know if I am as guilty as a listener as the person is who sung those terribly disrespectful things. I need wisdom on whether I crossed the line or just came close, or if I’m totally off base.
I’m about to go crazy, the weight is getting unbearable, and any help or wisdom is appreciated.
Sincerely,
Tommy H.
In the meantime I listened to horrible music that took Gods name in vain repeatedly because they did. Some of the songs said some really disrespectful stuff about Him and it really troubled me. I would “turn the radio down” when those parts came up. All the while I justified it by telling myself I wasn’t the one saying it so that made it ok. After a couple of years my conscience couldn’t take it any more. I dumped all of the music and told God I was sorry and felt relieved.
Fast forward about 10 years later, the guilt of how I disrespected God’s name fell on me like a pile of rocks. Add on top of that the passages in Hebrews about sinning willfully and you know the rest. My heart is like melted wax.
Where I need clarity is not whether I failed to honor Gods name, I know I didn’t. I need clarity on whether I sinned in such a hard-hearted way (Hebrews 6 &10) that Infit the description of those verses. I need to know if I am as guilty as a listener as the person is who sung those terribly disrespectful things. I need wisdom on whether I crossed the line or just came close, or if I’m totally off base.
I’m about to go crazy, the weight is getting unbearable, and any help or wisdom is appreciated.
Sincerely,
Tommy H.