Thanks to you who read or read and responded to my previous post, "The terrible thing."
Here is another aspect of my problem:
I have what are to me interesting and worthwhile plans for my life. These are perfectly legal, moral and ethical plans. But I only plan to begin to carry out those plans if I think I am saved.
Interesting plans for my life come down to interesting plans for the day, each day, including today. I have interesting plans for today. But as long as the possibility remains that I am not yet saved, I do not work on those plans. Instead, I concentrate on obtaining salvation.
I try to sincerely give my life to Christ. But then, I wonder if I was/am really sincere enough to actually get saved. One matter is this: do I give my life to Christ, then go about those plans? What if those plans are not what He wants for me? In fact, what if those plans are idols? What if busying myself with those plans would actually keep me from Him and His will?
I can "give my life to Christ" and then start on those planned activities. If I think those plans are within God's will for me, then, how convenient! I may fool myself into thinking my will is His will, and so, no problem! Just cruise!
Do I "give my life to Christ" with the subconscious intent to just go my own way, afterward?
Wondering about the above is part of my problem as to whether I am sincere with God, and whether I am really saved.
Here is another aspect of my problem:
I have what are to me interesting and worthwhile plans for my life. These are perfectly legal, moral and ethical plans. But I only plan to begin to carry out those plans if I think I am saved.
Interesting plans for my life come down to interesting plans for the day, each day, including today. I have interesting plans for today. But as long as the possibility remains that I am not yet saved, I do not work on those plans. Instead, I concentrate on obtaining salvation.
I try to sincerely give my life to Christ. But then, I wonder if I was/am really sincere enough to actually get saved. One matter is this: do I give my life to Christ, then go about those plans? What if those plans are not what He wants for me? In fact, what if those plans are idols? What if busying myself with those plans would actually keep me from Him and His will?
I can "give my life to Christ" and then start on those planned activities. If I think those plans are within God's will for me, then, how convenient! I may fool myself into thinking my will is His will, and so, no problem! Just cruise!
Do I "give my life to Christ" with the subconscious intent to just go my own way, afterward?
Wondering about the above is part of my problem as to whether I am sincere with God, and whether I am really saved.