Advice....

[nedeio]

I have been dealing with my mental disorder for 5 years. It has progressed to vocal outbursts. This only happens when I am alone. I am currently going to school to become an LPN. Sometimes I have an vocal outburst when I am studying or driving (alone). I take my medication. At times I wonder if I am competent enough to continue my education. I feel so bog down with my mental disorder. I have been reading the Bible every day but I don’t feel a difference inside of me. I want to stay faithful but I find this hard to do. I don’t know what approach to take in regards to living with a mental disorder. I want to believe in the healing power of Lord my Savior.


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[Hidden In Him]

I have been dealing with my mental disorder for 5 years. It has progressed to vocal outbursts. This only happens when I am alone. I am currently going to school to become an LPN. Sometimes I have an vocal outburst when I am studying or driving (alone). I take my medication. At times I wonder if I am competent enough to continue my education. I feel so bog down with my mental disorder. I have been reading the Bible every day but I don’t feel a difference inside of me. I want to stay faithful but I find this hard to do. I don’t know what approach to take in regards to living with a mental disorder. I want to believe in the healing power of Lord my Savior.


PS: I want to make some friends on here. PM me

God bless you, nedeio.

I'm surprised no one has answered your post yet, so welcome to our Forum, and I hope and pray you do make a lot of good friends here.

Let me pray about a proper response from God for you, and I'll post again.

 

[Hidden In Him]

I have been dealing with my mental disorder for 5 years. It has progressed to vocal outbursts. This only happens when I am alone. I am currently going to school to become an LPN. Sometimes I have an vocal outburst when I am studying or driving (alone). I take my medication. At times I wonder if I am competent enough to continue my education.

If the outbursts are only happening when you are alone, then at least the grace of God is there to protect you from doing so in public.

What disorder is it specifically, if I might ask? I'm truly curious.

 

[Solomons Porch]

I have been dealing with my mental disorder for 5 years. It has progressed to vocal outbursts. This only happens when I am alone. I am currently going to school to become an LPN. Sometimes I have an vocal outburst when I am studying or driving (alone). I take my medication. At times I wonder if I am competent enough to continue my education. I feel so bog down with my mental disorder. I have been reading the Bible every day but I don’t feel a difference inside of me. I want to stay faithful but I find this hard to do. I don’t know what approach to take in regards to living with a mental disorder. I want to believe in the healing power of Lord my Savior.


PS: I want to make some friends on here. PM me

Hey there and welcome to CF
What have you been medically diagnosed with?

 

[nedeio]

schizoaffective disorder

 

[Solomons Porch]

schizoaffective disorder

Sometimes I have an vocal outburst when I am studying or driving (alone).

So is the "verbal outburst" something that has recently taken place?

 

[nedeio]

It is already happened today. I was driving to my appointment with my doctor when all of sudden I started yelling.

Also ... when I was driving ... something (idk what to call it ) started talking through my voice and asked me " How was your appointment with your doctor? (kept asking numerous times)I know this sounds weird but I am telling the truth.

 

[Solomons Porch]

It is already happened today. I was driving to my appointment with my doctor when all of sudden I started yelling.

Also ... when I was driving ... something (idk what to call it ) started talking through my voice and asked me " How was your appointment with your doctor? (kept asking numerous times)I know this sounds weird but I am telling the truth.

Its ok, there's a couple of us weirdos here at CF and I mean that with all due laughable respect (myself included). So the voice you heard asking the question, was that your voice, or a voice in your head? was it audible or internal?

 

[nedeio]

Its ok, there's a couple of us weirdos here at CF and I mean that with all due laughable respect (myself included). So the voice you heard asking the question, was that your voice, or a voice in your head? was it audible or internal?

It was audible but it did not sound like my voice ... (something was communicating through my voice)

 

[Solomons Porch]

It was audible but it did not sound like my voice ... (something was communicating through my voice)

What do these voices usually say or is there something in particular that triggers them?

So your not sure if the audible voice was your own?

 

[Hidden In Him]

Let me pray about a proper response from God for you, and I'll post again.

Just praying and letting SP correspond with you, nedeio. Your situation is a tad out of my league and much more her department.

 

[nedeio]

What do these voices usually say or is there something in particular that triggers them?

So your not sure if the audible voice was your own?

I know the voice was not my own. I was focused on driving.

....triggers... if i am studying my flashcards... I start .yelling after a while ( 20 to 30 minutes or so ) or
if i am reading (out loud) or if i try to sing a christian song... I feel tightness in my throat.. and then i start yelling

 

[nedeio]

Just praying and letting SP correspond with you, nedeio. Your situation is a tad out of my league and much more her department.

Thanks Anyway I appreciate it

 

[Hidden In Him]

if i try to sing a christian song... I feel tightness in my throat.. and then i start yelling

This sounds like an enemy of Christ is involved right here. Have you ever tried fasting and praying for deliverance?

 

[Solomons Porch]

I know the voice was not my own. I was focused on driving.

....triggers... if i am studying my flashcards... I start .yelling after a while ( 20 to 30 minutes or so ) or
if i am reading (out loud) or if i try to sing a christian song... I feel tightness in my throat.. and then i start yelling

But your always alone?

What are the voices yelling out? Give me a for instance and do not worry about the things they may say "if embarrassing" and we can't use curse words (on CF) so just kinda put a blank there if that's the case as to be respectful to the site and others.

 

[nedeio]

I have tried fasting for a few days at a time. I have asked for deliverance. My church and my family has prayed for me.

In regards to faith
I find it difficult to keep the faith. When my outburst happen, I feel a strange feeling (eerie) ( hard to describe)

 

[Solomons Porch]

So you CANNOT control these verbal outbursts?

When my outburst happen, I feel a strange feeling (eerie) ( hard to describe)

I know it's hard and believe me I understand, but if you could describe it would help out and maybe we could figure out a plan of action for you to take, try to find the root of what's going on, since you're already on meds and it doesn't seem to be working.

 

[nedeio]

.... Jesus is not going to help you
Jesus is the answer for the world today... (i know this sounds strange... i know this a song this happened today)
babbling... tryinig to speak in tongues
One thing I notice that "IT" is very aware of my surroundings (and my actions)
I cant remember everything .. sorry the way "IT" is different than way I speak ..it really is putting a wall on my life

 

[nedeio]

So you CANNOT control these verbal outbursts?
I know it's hard and believe me I understand, but if you could describe it would help out and maybe we could figure out a plan of action for you to take, try to find the root of what's going on, since you're already on meds and it doesn't seem to be working.

No I can't

I try to remember this Bible verse

Fear not for I am with thee; be not dismayed for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee yea I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. Isiah 41:10

 

[Solomons Porch]

.... Jesus is not going to help you
Jesus is the answer for the world today... (i know this sounds strange... i know this a song this happened today)
babbling... tryinig to speak in tongues
One thing I notice that "IT" is very aware of my surroundings (and my actions)
I cant remember everything .. sorry the way "IT" is different than way I speak ..it really is putting a wall on my life

So the voice almost "seems" as if it is contradicting itself?
And not to be weird on ya, but was this post here a sample of the back n forth that "IT" does? And you don't have to apologize, your ok here, I promise, Im not gonna judge ya, take that check to the bank and cash it lol.