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I am 19 years old, I was baptized at 14, alone with my sisters. No parental influence as our parents aren’t really in the picture. I thought this is it I’m serving you Lord for good the cross before me the world behind me no turning back. But being so young, no parental guidance I of course kept teeter tottering in between church and a sinful crazy life. Anyways recently I have formed a relationship with my (ex) boyfriend which I will refer to as “R” (who is my first boyfriend ever) Breaking up with R is something I really didn’t want to do, because our relationship was great, we were happy but something ALWAYS felt missing and I felt a heavy conviction of the Holy Spirit to proceed to do so when I asked why and why and why I felt this voice stating just trust me. So I finally followed through with this voice, it’s not easy and he’s very hurt for he doesn’t understand but he’s willing to continue to be here for me. Upon being obedient, God finally showed me that he asked me to take a step back for one to test my obedience, because fornication played a large role in our relationship and the flames can only burn for so long, for me to learn how to be in love with Jesus, to learn how to be without depending on R to fill the voids that only God can fill, also because in our relationship we were pretty happy but we also both individually simply had too many things that we were never healed from in our childhoods such as sexual, physical and mental abuse, trauma, our parents being divorced, and we were often times unable to talk through out of each of our own insecurities, fear and abandonment issues which caused us to be codependent and led to unhappiness. However, I do have this supernatural sense that this may be temporary because R is a believer but Catholic. However, upon this decision I made to end our romantic relationship for now, I expressed to him that I really wanted him to encounter Jesus the way that I know Jesus and he was willing to do so and attend church with me even just as friends. He seems willing and for certain to want to know God and invite Jesus into his heart. God did speak to me and say that he wants to renew my identity in Christ and that he also wants to do so for R, he told me that i don’t need to toss R like trash because he has been great to me and I need to give him the opportunity to give himself to Christ especially if he desires to keep pursuing me. However, this journey of being renewed in Christ won’t be done together romantically but I believe regardless of that bond we have we can do this together as friends. God has revealed to me that if he is serious about embarking on a life journey with Jesus that we need to break the soul tie that we created and recommit all the vows we made to each other to Jesus. I’ve heard of countless stories such as this where someone has to leave their relationship for some time and make Jesus be the center of their life and embark on a journey together. I don’t know exactly what God is doing but I am trusting him. Because after all, R has become a huge part of my life for so many reasons he’s brought me into good, he helped me quit smoking weed, drinking alcohol, guided me away from listening to songs with subliminal satanic messages, guided me into being conservative and understanding from Gods point of view what the world should look like. I’ve come to notice the thing that was missing in our relationship is Jesus. He really has become my family as I have known him and his mom and sister my whole entire life. His sister and my older sister were best friends their whole life so our meeting was almost inevitable. God led me to the verse
“So they said, “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household.””
Acts 16:31
I don’t think this is the end for me and him but I do believe in the power of Christ and where he is taking me. I just need advice if anyone has ever experienced this, or gone through this, and I would like some scriptures and some insight. Thank you so much for reading all the way through.
I am 19 years old, I was baptized at 14, alone with my sisters. No parental influence as our parents aren’t really in the picture. I thought this is it I’m serving you Lord for good the cross before me the world behind me no turning back. But being so young, no parental guidance I of course kept teeter tottering in between church and a sinful crazy life. Anyways recently I have formed a relationship with my (ex) boyfriend which I will refer to as “R” (who is my first boyfriend ever) Breaking up with R is something I really didn’t want to do, because our relationship was great, we were happy but something ALWAYS felt missing and I felt a heavy conviction of the Holy Spirit to proceed to do so when I asked why and why and why I felt this voice stating just trust me. So I finally followed through with this voice, it’s not easy and he’s very hurt for he doesn’t understand but he’s willing to continue to be here for me. Upon being obedient, God finally showed me that he asked me to take a step back for one to test my obedience, because fornication played a large role in our relationship and the flames can only burn for so long, for me to learn how to be in love with Jesus, to learn how to be without depending on R to fill the voids that only God can fill, also because in our relationship we were pretty happy but we also both individually simply had too many things that we were never healed from in our childhoods such as sexual, physical and mental abuse, trauma, our parents being divorced, and we were often times unable to talk through out of each of our own insecurities, fear and abandonment issues which caused us to be codependent and led to unhappiness. However, I do have this supernatural sense that this may be temporary because R is a believer but Catholic. However, upon this decision I made to end our romantic relationship for now, I expressed to him that I really wanted him to encounter Jesus the way that I know Jesus and he was willing to do so and attend church with me even just as friends. He seems willing and for certain to want to know God and invite Jesus into his heart. God did speak to me and say that he wants to renew my identity in Christ and that he also wants to do so for R, he told me that i don’t need to toss R like trash because he has been great to me and I need to give him the opportunity to give himself to Christ especially if he desires to keep pursuing me. However, this journey of being renewed in Christ won’t be done together romantically but I believe regardless of that bond we have we can do this together as friends. God has revealed to me that if he is serious about embarking on a life journey with Jesus that we need to break the soul tie that we created and recommit all the vows we made to each other to Jesus. I’ve heard of countless stories such as this where someone has to leave their relationship for some time and make Jesus be the center of their life and embark on a journey together. I don’t know exactly what God is doing but I am trusting him. Because after all, R has become a huge part of my life for so many reasons he’s brought me into good, he helped me quit smoking weed, drinking alcohol, guided me away from listening to songs with subliminal satanic messages, guided me into being conservative and understanding from Gods point of view what the world should look like. I’ve come to notice the thing that was missing in our relationship is Jesus. He really has become my family as I have known him and his mom and sister my whole entire life. His sister and my older sister were best friends their whole life so our meeting was almost inevitable. God led me to the verse
“So they said, “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household.””
Acts 16:31
I don’t think this is the end for me and him but I do believe in the power of Christ and where he is taking me. I just need advice if anyone has ever experienced this, or gone through this, and I would like some scriptures and some insight. Thank you so much for reading all the way through.